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IT'S THYME TO GO LONG into a subject which answers the Titled question posted here.

I've observed over the past several years, perhaps the last 7 especially, the deeper I search myself for the meaning of my life and in search of my truth, the emptier of people it becomes. "The more wisdom you attain and the more conscious you become, the crazier you will appear to others."  - this phrase has always made me chuckle...until it happened to me. It's becoming apparent there is truth in this quote.

Perhaps there's a bit of that going on. Scalar waves anyone? What my experience has consisted of though, is there seems to be a point where people are "done" hearing about it. Done hearing about my journey and growth, done hearing I've found another way, done listening to how my life and my perspective of it has changed.  I've always been curious how one can feel done when one hasn't explored these things for themself. What exactly are they "done" with?...Me?

Even more curious, is why others feel I'm asking anything from them. I ask nothing, I dictate nothing, I require nothing, I expect nothing. I'm on my journey - they on theirs. Enough said.

I've been asked, more than a few times, "Does everything have to be Spiritual with you?", "Can we just keep it light?" When I sit with this, I realize for 43 years, my life was given into this world, along with everything that influences it - basically collective consciousness and major conditioning. No one taught me about the Spiritual world inside me, even though I've always known it was there. A part of me has always sought out higher wisdom and Spiritual affairs. Only in the last 4 years of continual searching, researching, digging, questing my fibers to reach the point where I can answer this question with a big fat YES! It has taken me 4 years to be able to wake up in the morning and actually know that I'm Spirit first. To "think" spiritually, to "speak" from spirit and to "act" in a spiritual way - and still far from mastery.

Yes, I strive to live a Spiritual life! Why not?, I've been living in this world as it is all this time, and I'm ready for something different. I've worked really hard to obtain, what I feel, is the itty-bitty beginnings of higher knowledge within myself. Curious, always curious where a path will take me. The pay off has been the bits of knowledge absorbed along the way, the gift of relaxing into this vessel and into this human experience. The deep Spiritual experiences I've had is better entertainment than any TV show I've ever seen. Shedding the lies and illusion of this place has been a gift ... a real gift.

DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SPIRITUAL?

No surprises here - whether we want to believe in anything or not, or whether we pursue this subject or not - it doesn't matter - and I'll tell you why; Because EVERYTHING here is Spiritual. I'll say it again.

EVERYTHING HERE THAT EXISTS, IS SPIRITUAL.

How are we to get around talking about this one? We can't, unless we ignore it. Perhaps a better question then would be, "Do you have to run at such and such a frequency all the time?", "Can't you pull back on your vibration a bit?" I could, absolutely. But I don't want to anymore. 43 years at/in a frequency where I allowed the world to form and shape me. A frequency with a glass ceiling, a frequency where I didn't even bother searching for my higher self; I call that the grey zone, and in my opinion, it's dangerous to the Soul. Very dangerous. I got in a lot of trouble, found myself to be spiritually sick, in that grey zone.

Humans tend to define the mundane subjects in life as "keeping it light" - while Spirituality is the "heavy" subject. Where did we learn that searching our inner-selves or accepting ourselves in a loving way is "the" heavy subject, and the state of the world we live in is lighter conversation? Personally, when I get involved in conversations that discuss this world, I walk away feeling very heavy, helpless and hopeless. THAT is heavy to me. I just can't do it anymore ... don't want to do it anymore. This has produced the isolation spoken of earlier in this piece. Many people have migrated out of my life. Some have walked away, others have ran and still others have straight up ghosted me - after years and years and years of friendship, and I'm talking friends AND family...yes, family.

Are we not able to hold space for each other? When I get excited about an aspect of my Spiritual growth, and I share it, why does this seem to turn others off? I am only sharing my experience...what happened to me...what I've been shown.

Life has become a lonely place indeed and will continue to do so as I run head on into the realms of my inner-being. I always joke about finding a cave and becoming a hermit. I'm beginning to think it's not a joke but an actual thing that happens to people when they start to unplug from the world. The 2 worlds no longer mesh together and at some point, one looks around them and realizes they stand alone. Not in martyrdom, just alone.

          The number of paths to enlightenment are countless

... no one path is better than the other; yet there are some very contrasting paths compared to the "straight" path, so spoken about in almost every sacred text, religion, spiritual sect, or truth seeker out there right now.

Before this piece goes further, I have to remind myself of the truth that my very next experience stems from how I'm thinking NOW...right now, what I say NEXT and what my actions are going to be. So if my goal is to experience something different in the very next moment, I have to look behind me to see where I was and ask the question of whether I want that to be my next experience. I also have to assess where I'm at spiritually, emotionally and mentally, right now. Right NOW is the very key moment of creation, it is also where we find the "straight path", the "razors edge". This is IT's "core", it's where the tools one has accumulated up to this point, are available all in one place. I am the only one who has access and permission to use them when it comes to creating my very next moment. No one controls 'that very next moment' except myself, the Consciousness part of myself. Depending on the tools I choose to use, this will shape the next nano-second of Creation. It happens THAT fast.

Reminding myself I am Sovereign, helps navigate  my path. I've learned to side-step  away from wasting my spiritual time by following pathways down rabbit holes of spiritual teachings, teachers, gurus, religions, sects, cults, etc. - and the worst of the worst - Spiritual Cons.

Not a very high resonating frequency, for sure ... especially amongst those who created it for the 'soul' purpose to divert people away from themselves, their path and their purpose.

The best way to identify these groups or people, is to THINK.

Every seeker has their own path and being sovereign allows the freedom to explore whatever it is we want. It's a beautiful freedom we have, and powerful when it comes to our growth. Every detail in every given moment is created by the individual ... every single detail of the experience. I can't think of any better moment than to utilize the tool of CRITICAL THINKING other than Right Now.

Two GREAT questions to ask yourself when someone in spiritual authority, or in casual conversation like we have here in this blog piece, is talking to you are these:
1. Why am I being told this?
2. Where did they hear/learn it? ... a tag question I like to ask also, is, "How have you personally applied this information or lesson/s?"

Based on the answers, I then learn how educated, or not, they are on the subject of what they speak, along with the depth, or not, of their experiences on the topic. This helps me navigate how much credit I should give with what is being shared.

Often times, unfortunately, individuals are rehashing spiritual material they've read, learned or heard from someone else without EVER applying the material to themself. Here, they have missed the whole journey! How can someone know what a truth is when they don't apply it to themselves first to determine whether it's "Their" truth or not? What's even more noticeable, is they speak about spiritual matters with so much conviction, it's easy for most to just go along with the program. The excitement, passion and sometimes ... persuasion, can pull an individual down roads they have no place being. Although, this is part of a journey for the seeker too - following blindly before one has Spiritually matured to start asking those hard questions, before the seeker starts to put into practice what is being delivered to explore if it's their truth or not.

But let us learn discretion now!

I highly encourage the questions, especially when you find yourself excited in what you are hearing. THIS is when discretion is most critical. I've put many "beliefs" to bed by exploring them thoroughly, and realizing it may be a truth?, but it's not MY truth. It's not part of MY path. Very helpful in navigation of the Soul journey.

OK

I'll close this entry with something I read the other day - ENJOY!

How do you know you are standing at a threshold of evolution?...Spiritual/Soul evolution? A strong pull to "level up" in one's Soul path. It happens so rarely, most don't understand the signs that show themselves to grab your attention to this process. We as humans, tend to make up stories of denial even when the signs are harsh and in our face. Even the pure hearted Truth Seeker will tend to resist what they truly desire to experience and understand - this is me, was me.

Why is this? Keep reading for just a facet of this answer...

We're going to talk SURRENDER & SACRIFICE - 2 words that will have many running already. I know this, because I've been the runner, and depending on future circumstance, I may run from this evolutionary process again. Although, I hope not.

Surrender and walking through the initiate doorway - We work our way to this point and freeze, or we trip and fall back down the stairs into the space we've just come from. Sometimes we just stand at the threshold and wait, seemingly forever, to see what might happen. That door? - we can dance around it, turn our back to it, pretend we are ready to elevate our inner being to a higher frequency; and yet, until we choose to release the "matter" we have collected through aeons (see my blog on matter, here), our conditioning, the actual suppression of our Soul; we will continue to hear the calling of ascension and live in our frustration of why our world isn't what we want to be experiencing. To pass through to the other side takes the sacrifice of what we need to shed (the false who, the heavy "matter"), to be able to step into who we KNOW we truly are. This equates to the spiritual teachings in every major religion when it speaks to the death and the resurrection. Death/Transmutation from the unseen and learnt bonds, and then Resurrecting into the understanding of our true Sovereign natures.

SURRENDER is one of the most selfless acts we can perform for our Soul journey. Surrender, coupled with Sacrifice, is a technique that's needed for the momentum of our SOUL. It is the ultimate Self Love maneuver. Surrender is Soul food. Most people cringe away from this immediately, even hearing the words trigger deep emotions in many, even repulsion.

Lets talk RESISTANCE then.

Every time we ascend a level, raise our frequency, accept another rung on Jacobs Ladder (so to speak), it is because we've moved forward, which naturally leaves something behind, being the "whatever is required", to be sacrificed. Energy can not vibrate at a higher frequency when heavier matter is attached to it. So how is this comprehended? Why does it seem so difficult and take so long?

Its because of our resistance to release the heavier matter, for many reasons we resist. The energy wants to rise, wants to expand, and yet we keep it all compartmentalized in an orderly fashion to control the natural process/es. We hang onto things, situations, people, habits and behaviors ... even when they are harmful to us, on the mere fact that it's familiar to us. We may fear lost opportunities if we let go, or we fear the work it may take to release a lower vibration, we fear the maintenance needed to hold that new level of ascension. For some, addictions are strong "bindings" to lower frequencies.

Let me tell you a secret , where you find your Soul journey is now? - IT TOOK AN ASCENSION, probably many ascensions, to where you find yourself maintaining your NOW. This isn't unfamiliar work to your Soul - it knows it's way, it has the calling to the direction it longs to be. It knows, YOU know, exactly what goes on down here (earth, 3D realm). What is standing in it's way? - Matter, mind Matter. The stuff that manifests, constantly, from within the frequency we find ourselves now. Remember, you are a creator with the same power to create as the Creative Consciousness. You ARE the consciousness.

Here's what I've learned recently...

I recently allowed myself to step through the initiate doorway to accept a higher frequency. Why not, right? I've been in this vibration till the end, until there was nothing more to learn. I restrained and resisted, many times. Fear, not knowing if I could maintain a higher frequency. Nervous because I don't know what happens at a higher frequency. Fear of releasing patterns I've always known. The cool thing about this experience, is I thought I had to release absolutely EVERYTHING before I could walk through. Not So! I had to release some, yes, absolutely; Releasing the charge in some of my compartmentalized "matter". I was allowed to step over with some residual matter. This was exciting to learn and felt like a grace was given to me because I was finally Willing to sacrifice some, enough, to pass through.

An easy way to identify where we need to evolve next, is to pay attention to what triggers us, in ANY way. The next step in evolution 'can' be as easy as choosing to avoid any and all circumstances that resonate at the frequency which doesn't match our own, this is wisdom. Diffusing the charge with healing, and acceptance of its lesson to us.

Sometimes, often times, it goes much deeper than this. The situation/s that really inhibit the Souls journey, Dark Night of the Soul experiences for example, would qualify as a major shift, and major ascension, up the ladder of Jacob. These experiences are often tied to aeons of human conditioning and pain, the real heavy dark matter that hangs on the Soul and keeps it entrapped on the 3D plane. Trauma of many kinds qualify here as well.

There is no one right or wrong way to ascend, there is, however, one path that allows it. How we all get to that path varies. What is consistent though, once we arrive at the Threshold of ascension, we must sacrifice 'Matter'. How much or how little is between you and your higher power. This is why 'no man knows the hour', as this process and agreement pertains to the direct relationship the Soul has with the Spirit, who has the relationship with the pure consciousness.

I stood at the threshold for a little over a year before I decided, "I have nothing to lose and everything to gain". I'm through the door now, the portal, a new paradigm before me. I've taken the first few steps forward, looking at the open plane before me ... ready to remake myself based on the Soul journey. I don't feel I "walked away" from anything as much as I feel I've "walked into" ... forward, always forward. It's exciting to me now, knowing my last cycle is coming to a close. What lies before me? ... just like my last cycle, I don't know. It's inspiring though, looking out over the plane - fresh and new, untouched, with the full understanding that I now get to create that future.

If there is something here you, the reader, would like a deeper understanding on, contact me and lets start some dialog.

Until next time - Be Well, Stay Well!

I personally want to take Thyme here to recognize my brothers, my male counterparts, the Kings, Knights and Naives that are with me everyday. I acknowledge your presence, I see your Divinity and I hear your words and desires. Here I hold space for you, always.

Glory is the day when a man knows he can set aside his sword, straighten his crown and walk in the shoes of Divine Masculine energy; A quality of unadulterated FORCE the human mind can only begin to comprehend. Distorted it is not, in any way, nor on any grounds. In it's pure form, it exists in it's power and allows that power to BE! It swims and exists in the same waters and the same ether as the Divine Feminine - LOVE.

From my own perspective, and mine alone, I've been observing my male counterparts for years (over 40+ years) and believe I have learned why our boys, our Fathers, our brothers, uncles and cousins, our husbands and male friends, are in so much pain and detached from their true "nature". I have seen, witnessed and experienced many many things when it comes to coexisting with the masculine. I raised a boy, who is now considered a man. I watched him go through the trials and tribulations defining this concept for himself...and hopefully will continue to do so until he fully understands what a Beautiful, Bountiful, Uninhibited, Spiritual power he has in the palms of his hands and in the depths of his heart. His birth right. If you are a man reading this, YOUR birth right! If you are a woman reading this, also your birth right.

Healing is a vulnerable task for most - and one that many shy away from. Mention healing to a hurt/broken masculine, and you'll be hit with instant resistance, most of the time. It takes pure strength and bravery to approach a masculine who has many pains in the heart, neglected of his youth and emotionally traumatized, with seemingly nowhere to put it. HUGE HUGS to those of you who've experienced anything less than being acknowledged as a Divine Being, a Sacred/Kindred Spirit and the archetype of the Divine Masculine. I humbly bow in honor for you ...

I acknowledge I can only speak of the Divine Masculine as I know it inside of myself. Healing this energy, that is the perfect counterpart to the Divine Feminine in me, is a goal, and a task, that has become of importance at this time. To move forward in life with balanced energies, flowing without restriction or fear, is something I'm striving for. I too desire to know this aspect of myself; It's long overdue in my opinion, and needed if I want to be a Creator. Yes indeed.

"Men Have Nipples Too!" is a project, a bridge if you will, born from hearing a brother tell his story, showing the sweet vulnerability a man can have when he's fearless in asking for what he knows makes him thrive. I heard that story ... RESONATE with that story, and now I've made it a personal "call to action", to  create a platform for Men, about Men, driven and executed by Men to be heard. Healing begins, when one is heard. In Thyme, men will take this project over and be THE VOICE while I work and support it behind the scenes...for now, I'm one Sister swimming in a sea of her broken brothers, and it pains me in a way I can not describe. Heartbreaking really - and I want to change that. Now. Today.

WHY?

...Because our son's need it, our baby boys need that platform. Our young men crave understanding, nurturing and solid male figures to lean on and learn from. Boys and men of all ages deserve, and need, to be heard.

Most importantly, we need to be reminded of that Wild, Raw, Powerful Masculine energy that swells within them to be set free...in healthy ways, without obstacles and distractions, without labels of what "masculinity" means (we have been severely lied to here people), as TRUE masculinity can only be experienced and LIVED! It's Thyme people - we need our King energies again, not this broken masculinity that's been bleeding and draining us for hundreds of years now (most likely longer than that).

What will and what has, already been created for this project:

PODCASTS: Under Construction
Interviews with men and leaders in the world who focus on connecting the dots for the Divine Masculine. Healers, Coaches, Teachers, Spiritual Guides...etc, will be featured on this show along with resources for further information and growth.

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/menhavenipplestoo/
This account is already up and live. Go ahead and click it, Follow it and celebrate it!

YOUTUBE: Under Construction
There will be a special "Room", within the Spirit Room, dedicated to this project. Additional interviews with men and experts in the field will be featured here, along with resources for growth and understanding.

GROUPS: Under Construction
Whether a guest speaker has knowledge to share, or men gather to remind and be reminded they are powerful, beautiful and perfect in their masculine energies, these groups will be multi-serving opportunities to grow, heal and empower yourselves.

It took a hot minute to bring this project to the forefront. It took deep Spiritual exploration on my part, getting over myself for being a woman speaking of such things, starting the healing process of the Divine Masculine within myself and my shyness of being in the lime light. I'M OVER IT THOUGH!! I'm not one to let a passion of the heart sit in a corner neglected. I'm not one to sit back while I see harm being done ... no, contrare ... I stand up and execute what fires my Soul. Hmmm...I believe this is the work of the Divine Masculine in me, isn't it?

If you find a passion was sparked here, and would like more information about this project ... if you'd like to share a story I could highlight and share with others, if you'd like to be interviewed about your experience/s (whether its your healing journey, your pain journey or realizations), if you know of programs, seminars, retreats groups and leaders that align with MEN AND MASCULINITY, reach out to me and lets start a conversation.

Until next time - BE WELL, STAY WELL!

WHAT SPELLS ARE YOU CASTING? ... when you address yourself or speak of others, or when you make decisions to experience life a certain way? The people you allow in your life, the material you read, the information coming through the TV set, music you listen to; How is this Creating your experience?...or better yet, the illusion of your reality?

If I'm going to be a voice in the crowd ... speaking with absolute intention when I do?, becomes a very conscious effort to stay aware with my choice of words. Words/Sounds, vibrate at a frequency (basic science), and this frequency has an effect on the receiving end. I understand what I share, either in written form or verbally, will ripple to a receiving party. By keeping my words as close to my values and morals as possible,  I ensure an effort is taken to create a favorable outcome - yet I also realize, I have no control over the interpretation once it travels through the layers of filtering on the receiving end. So "tricky" to navigate at times...

The written word has tremendous POWER! We all know this, yet rarely stay aware of it. Examples of this power can be found in places like our Holy Books and scriptures of all cultures. Here in the US, this power is found in our Constitution. Written contracts (a type of "binding" spell), such as bank loans, licenses, certificates, etc. also pack a tremendous amount of power. The written word takes an initial thought and manifests it by way of "Spelling". When we think, we are actually creating with the power of our intention. Once it's spoken or written, the action of conjuring becomes manifest! To us in our daily lives, this is just something we do naturally, without much thought. We are unaware of what's happening though.

We learned how to "spell" in elementary school and we've been spelling ever since.
So let's explore it ...

I like this passage from John:
John 6:63 "The words I have spoken to you are both Spirit and Life"
This is what we're going to look at, as this passage sums up what is happening when we speak or write.

I am going to call it by an old term - MAGIK (Spirit, life, energy, creation, miracles). I'm able to use this word without getting riled over whether this is a good word or a bad word, nor do I identify myself with the stereotype persona that accompanies this word. I'm merely ME, no label attached. Many will shy away, still to this day, as we've been conditioned to think Magik and Spelling is a sin (taboo'ish at a minimum), although we perform it 24/7.

With that said, this blog piece isn't to dive into whether magik or spelling, conjouring, mantra, singing or prayer is sinful or not - This piece is meant to explore the power of what we say and think. A wake-up call perhaps. A loooong overdue wake-up call.

"The word “spell” comes from the Proto-Germanic “spellan”, meaning “to tell”, which in turn gave rise to the Old English “spellian” and then “spell”.  The first recorded instance of spell, being used to indicate writing or reciting the individual letters of a word, was in the early 15th century.  It would later be given the meanings “incantation” (late 16th century) and “to take the place of” (early 18th century)." - pulled from several sources on the internet.

Of course written communication dates back further than the 15th century, thousands of years actually.

With the most Enlightened intentions, we use words in prayer, chanting, singing and positive speech. The frequency level, stemming from a high vibrational wave, creates a moment in time which dictates the next moment, manifested from the moment prior - and usually causes a really good feeling for the person/s. Be aware then, we create this way utilizing low vibrating frequencies too - creating the next moment on the foundation of what?....low frequency. This is the answer to the old question of, "Why should I watch my thoughts?" ... and should, in my opinion, be the very first lessons to master for anyone choosing to explore a Spiritual path. Control of the mind is number one and the most difficult journey to master...but this is where it must start.

As a Practitioner and Coach, I'm trained to "listen" to what my clients speak. I listen to what they say about themselves, what they say about their lives, their body, friends, family and work. I pay attention to the frequency of their words and overall demeanor. This assists me when I evaluate someone's energy. If a client comes in and states, "I'm a mess" ... there is a powerful energy that resonates from these words. I encourage a different persective of speech. An example would be:

Client: "My body is a mess and completely screwed up".
...the language that's encouraged for healing is this:
Me: "Thank you body, for holding me together this long and showing me the strength and determination you have for my life. Thank you for protecting me, you have done such a beautiful job".

Are you able to sense the difference in energy between these two statements? The first statement is constrictive, often times showing in the physical body when someone arrives at my studio. The second statement however, is much softer and forgiving. The second statement is an acknowledgement of the self, with gratitude and COMPASSION. Often times, a person will take a deep breath hearing the softer version, as they realize YES, absolutely their body has been doing beautiful work at keeping it together.

So I'd like to invite you to watch your thoughts. For one week, follow and be aware of what you are thinking in any given moment. Call it self exploration week.
What to do:
1. Keep a notebook next to you to track reoccurring thoughts and patterns. Also note how those thoughts make you feel.
2. Try to find an alternative way to think about something that makes it softer, or more forgiving (like the example I gave above).
3. "Think" how you want to feel and then make a list of actions that will give you this feeling.
4. Stay aware of your tone with yourself and with other people.
5. Control your mind, always and in All-Ways.

Remember, you are casting spells in every moment. I call them spells and recognize them as spells, because the word "spell" in and of itself, holds power. Just think how this word makes you feel and you will understand what I'm saying here. Spells are neither "good" or "bad", spells just use the Universal power that is already accessible to every one and every thing. We, as creators, can use this energy in a state high or low frequency.

It's time to raise the bar ... and it starts with the spells we cast against ourselves. Self awareness and also self accountability.

Much love to you. Be Well and Stay Well.

Diving head first into this subject ... I'll be doing a YouTube video about this as well, but needed the quiet space to get what's in my head out in writing...as there seems to be A LOT that needs saying on this subject.

"LOVE" - a seemingly simple word, one most of us say at least once a day.

I'll say this right now though, we do not understand the POWER of this word, nor it's energy...not even close, yo! My hope here is to plant a seed of awareness of what this energy actually is. It'll blow your mind, it'll knock your socks off, it'll change the way you approach the concept of L-O-V-E.

LOVE is not a word. It's NOT a noun; nor is it merely SEX. It's not meant to be degraded into a label - or something that is presented lightly. Many many many make this error...innocently of course, as we are not taught, nor shown, the ultimate power of this word. Amazing really.

WHAT IS IT THEN???

To put it in laymen terms, and if it were to be a word, it would be a verb. The original action of CREATION itself! The darkness (feminine) before it presented itself (masculine), transformed itself, into LIGHT. It's the "original" source of EVERYTHING that is and everything that shall be, ever was and moving forward to whatever and wherever it moves. The nature of this energy is unadulterated, unfathomable, incomprehensible in its totality ... the perfect balance, alignment and centeredness. It also contains within itself the duality of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine...again, in PERFECT balance and harmony. Think Yin/Yang energy, one can not exist without the other. The light and the dark, integrated into one FORCE - THE FORCE (Star Wars understood this). Both are needed. This is the HOLY marriage written about in so many scriptures through ancient writings, through all cultures. Let us not forget there was a time when our ancestors, and spiritual ancestors, understood this balance and actually honored it for what it "IS" - the "I AM" that is spoken about in many spiritual teachings, stated in various different ways. I'll stick with the "I AM", for most have heard this phrase, and its a "go to" here in the west. Trust me though, there many many words and phrases describing this sacred energy in every culture, around the globe, throughout all of history.

Somewhere along the line, LOVE became blurred. Perhaps it was intentional to blur the truth. Humans started to sequester the power and balance of this energy. It seems to have fallen, right along with us, into this 3D realm we "think" is actual reality. It's not reality...

LOVE has become so battered, so perverse, too many labels, imbalanced - first within ourselves, to where we don't recognize it any longer. We have taken the Holy sexual union and dropped it down into the dirt of desire, greed and often times ... war. Where war exists, love does not - starting within yourself. It ALWAYS starts within yourself.

Love is bastardized through our media, hollywood, music, religions, politics - and very sadly, our homes. We as a collective, no longer honor who and what we really are. Very few recognize who they actually are, completely lost, trapped and enslaved to the human experience. No longer able to connect with their Spirit. No longer able to channel that energy...and so love has become just a word, an energy we don't practice often enough, and for many, not at all.

If I were to ask you how many hours a day you spend in a state of LOVE, vs. how many hours you spend in your thoughts and emotions - what would your answer be?

If I were to ask you how many hours you spend seeking your Spirit vs. chasing the proverbial 3D life, what would you say?

If I were to ask how many of you at least live a balance between Spirit vs. Human, what would you say? Do your actions come from Spirit (love), or do they come from the Human (ego) trying to build a good 3D life here (I'm not saying a good life is not what we should be trying to achieve, only that we invite Spirit into that creation)?

These are VERY important questions to answer for yourself. How else are you to know where you are currently vibrating at, what you are drawing to you ... what you are creating for yourself? Seriously, contemplate this.

The "ACTION" needed right now?:
1. Take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for yourself, always and IN all-ways!
2. Take note of what you think about. If your thoughts are negative, violent, vengeful, critical, low resonating - I guarantee, LOVE is missing in the equation - not sometimes, but EVERY TIME.
3. When you speak, what do you speak? Are you gossiping and talking down to others? Are you manipulating situations for personal gain, lying, cursing, damning others, judging who and what someone is? Again, LOVE is missing in this equation.
4. Take note of your emotions in every situation. Are you scared, nervous, depressed, confused, lost, hateful, jealous, etc ... LOVE is missing in this equation.
5. What information are you allowing into your energy fields? - quality of music, media, reading material, people in your life? Is LOVE in this equation?

The first action needed lies within SELF AWARENESS. We are unable to move into the energy of SPIRIT if we are lost in not knowing where we are with ourselves in the RIGHT NOW! Makes sense, right? Pretty damn simple to do too if you're willing to humble up and be honest with yourself.

LOVE  - Breaking the Chains!
1. Take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for yourself, always, and in all-ways!
2. Assess where you are right now, based on the questions asked above, and decide if this is where you want to be. Seriously, take your time with this exercise.
3. Understand how sacred, how incomprehensibly SACRED, your Spirit and Soul is. You are not who you "think" you are.
4. Then understand how sacred everyone around you is - whether they recognize themselves or not. Try not to get disturbed with how out-of-touch your brothers and sisters are here. Hold your focus on YOU...for now.
5. Pick up a serious practice of Soul searching and Spirit definition.
6. Start experimenting with allowing every thought, every emotion and every action to float through the screen/veil/filter of your Spirit.
7. Verbally give permission for your Spirit to intervene when your Soul is traveling off it's path. Surrender to the assistance that is then given. It'll always be for your highest.

For those of you who do not identify with the Spirit or the Soul, you can still practice this mindset by running your thoughts, words and actions through the filter of "KINDNESS".

Whether we/you are Spiritual or not, there is a rule to follow - HARM TO NO ONE. Always. Practice this and I promise, your world, your perceived reality?...will change.

Once you experience THAT change, there is no going back. You can no longer disregard the power, the force, the original creative energy of LOVE (the raw power of sexual energy). I'll write a separate blog entry about "sexual energy", as it too, will blow your mind.  It's not what you think it is.

I'll let this one rest here, although I could keep writing ... perhaps this entry is Part 1.

As always, these words are here for you to grow, contemplate, share with others; I will continue to share my explorative path as I travel it.

It took a tremendous amount of SURRENDER(ing) this past year, to where I find myself feeling the "promise" in the air, now.

...this feeling of promise has been showing itself all year actually. In both big and small ways, PROMISE, has made itself known. I chose to take notice and decided that I'd let it show me what it meant. The unfolding moments as the days, weeks and months past away this year, shows me a clear path of promise and opportunity. It seems I'm not alone in feeling this way either. Turning to electronic communications allowed me to touch base with many people, who too, are feeling that promise.

I started this blog awhile ago, but really dug into it this year...
A. I've had the time to dedicate to it
B. It's been on my list for a long time
C. Many big things need divine timing

I can say I've surrendered to many aspects of my thoughts, my emotions and Spiritual path this year of 2020 as I found myself right smack in the middle of a HISTORICAL time. I happened to choose "Surrender" as my word for the year. Yep ... divine timing at it's finest. I chose the word Surrender in December 2019. Little did I know, this was either an omen of what was coming, or a clear message from my guides that I'm going to have to let go of some rocks in the river and let it carry me through any rapids, switch backs ... the soft bends. My feeling now is it was a little of both.

The first thing I allowed myself to do, was to engage in some good ol grassroots clearing and healing...and then I dove into the hard work. You can read about some of those experiences in my previous blog entries (see archives). This year provided the perfect platform to perform a personal over-haul of everything I know myself to be and also learn what I'm truly made of. I grew - ALOT! ... and here I am, planning for my future because it feels and looks very promising. I lost many things that I held dear to me, and chose to let go of others (including relationships). I closed these aspects out with gratitude of the lessons, and love in my heart. Not all of them felt good, while others sent me down rabbit holes where I explored even deeper meanings to connections and certain patterns.

My work isn't done ... I have accepted my inner work is never done, however, I've learned how to keep moving, on the inside, with the soul journey. The Soul journey is what we're on. The Soul knows where it's going. Sometimes it's good to SURRENDER to that process and allow ourselves to flow with the Great Wheel, lest we be crushed by it.

As 2021 creeps closer ... and I take space to choose a new word for the year, I believe I will spend the last couple days here and Surrender what I have left. Seems fitting ...

CHEERS! BE WELL, STAY WELL!

SPIRITUAL BYPASS - a term coined by psychotherapist, John Welwood - RIP.
 
He defined this phenomenon as using “spiritual ideas and practices to sidestep personal, emotional ‘unfinished business,’ to shore up a shaky sense of self, or to belittle basic needs, feelings, and developmental tasks.” The goal of these practices is to achieve spiritual enlightenment. Some of you may also know this practice as cognitive dissonance. Because I work mainly on a spiritual level with individuals, I prefer the definition of Spiritual Bypass over CD. When I heard it, it was a "That's IT!" moment.

As I've been moving through this year of deep healing, this concept hit at the perfect time for me in my process. I literally STOPPED to ask myself, "Where do I spiritually bypass? Am I spiritually bypassing in any area?" Well, because I'm human, that answer was yes - not across the board, thank God, but in some areas that could be detrimental to my growth had I not come across this lesson. Spiritual bypassing hits deep once we remove the practice of it. By stopping this process, it rips the scab off wounds of our mental and spiritual states, exposing us to our raw, vulnerable, often times infantile states of being.

How have I Spiritually Bypassed?
1. Reading, studying, researching spiritual practices, but not practicing them fully. Not putting them through my filters to see if they are actual practices that I vibe with, believe in, or even suit me in my journey.
2. Writing down "to do" lists for growth, then stalling myself, distracting myself, before I complete the goal.
3. Allowing, and even creating, distractions that counter the inner work I want to do.

Spiritual growth and healing is very messy work. Very messy ... and can be extremely painful. It's why most hesitate from this process and choose instead to seek and look outside of themself for comfort. Comfort is a good word for Spiritual Bypassing.
1. Go to a guru and get lifted with positive messages.
2. Attend a high power/energy retreat that gets the adrenaline going and leaves you feeling empowered for a weekend.
3. Go to church and feel community for an hour.
4. Listen to a podcast or lecture on all we need to do is "think positive" and all our troubles will melt away.
5. Change your vibration and you can't be touched.

All these sound good, and they are all very healthy things to do - YES! No argument there - but there is a HUGE piece missing here in these processes. I've seen many speak away their weaknesses and trespasses by stating, "well, we're all sinners", or "just fill your heart with love, it conquers all", or "let's just clean-slate it". Sorry folks, it just doesn't work like that. If it did, we'd be living in a whole different reality with each other. If it were that easy ... It's not easy, I guarantee you that.

The process of Spiritual Enlightenment is getting down into the mud with yourself and staying there in it until you realize how the spiritual dysfunction got there to begin with. I promise you, most of how it got there is by your own doing ... and this is what people don't like to look at. We like to point away from ourselves (projection), we prefer to blame someone else for our trespasses, our pain, our sorrow. By allowing yourself to sit in your mud, you begin to take notice how it was "you" that allowed many of these things to happen. It was "you" that actually manifested these situations for yourself...and OH, how discombobulating this realization is. How utterly humbling to know we are the ones that opened the door for pain upon ourselves.

Spiritual enlightenment forces us to take responsibility, take ownership of our actions and mental state. It forces us to clean up our act, so to speak. There is absolutely NO WAY to escape the process of digging into your shadow for true healing and spiritual growth. There are NO SHORTCUTS, there are NO BYPASSES. One can not cheat the system of Universal Law. There is NO WAY of getting out easy.

Again, healing is hard work. Hard-ass-work. WORK!, not la-la lets pretend like all is well in the world - NO - you cheat yourself out of the joy of truly understanding yourself and toughing through the dementia of your mind. There is nothing more blissful than eating your own mudpie, wiping your mouth clean and claiming your prize of healing.

How do you know you've succeeded in healing?, when you don't have to TRY to think positive thoughts. When you don't have to TRY to not be angry or sad or depressed or defeated. When you don't have to run to the next "ra-ra" retreat to get a fix of positive affirmation. When you don't have to fill your world with memes and constant reminders that you are worth something - instead, you write/create them for other people. You lead others into their mud and tell them they are not alone. You stand tall and have a natural air of compassion about you. You no longer have to quote the Masters as your daily speech, because you've cultivated your own divine language for yourself. People now quote you!

There is plenty to fear by turning inward, as most don't have a clue of who they are. I was told once that should I decide to take that inner journey into the self, be prepared to be horrified at what I'll find and discover. Many spiritual cultures refer to this type of spiritual quest as going down into the dark caves of Hades. The only way to enter, is to enter completely naked, with only the torch of your inner-light guiding the way. There will be many shadows and many echoes trying to push one back from the forward course...but when you realize those shadows are your shadows and the echoes stem from your own demented ego, the fear starts to dissipate and we start to see the light at the end...but at first, it is horrifying. I know, as I've been there.

One must go down before one comes up. It's the Law.

What is the payoff? There are many many payoffs to doing this kind of work. The main one, is truly knowing yourself. You will never question again your value, who you are, where you came from, what your purpose is. This is huge and a gift that no one can give you...nor can anyone take it away.

Spiritual Bypassing is a band-aid. It works for a time, before it falls off and another has to be applied. At some point, you have to remove the bandage and let the wound "air out" so it can heal properly.

My recommendation for anyone who desires to travel a quest of healing like this ... do make sure you have some outside support from a therapist, a spiritual coach, or practitioner who can help guide you through some of the deeper traumas. It's helpful to have someone you trust, but also qualified to help navigate through the distortions of the mind. Once most of the thick, sick, ill-filled mud has been cleared, one can usually take off on their own and develop their own unique Spiritual calling.

In love and light, I share these words with you. It is my hope that each and every one of you that reads these posts, pulls a seed or two from them. Create them however you desire. There is never a right or wrong way - our paths are individual and unique.

Until next time - Be well, Stay well

Trying to understand the "nature" of Spirit is a journey that has kept me entertained, and fascinated, for years! Chasing it has proven fruitless. Trying to study it in books ends up with words that elude me, and sends me down more rabbit holes, with more questions than answers.
I have found that obtaining most anything in life is pretty simple in the regard that when I stop trying to "gain" something, or stop "trying" so hard, all of a sudden it appears, whatever that may be. My Spirit has proven to be no different ... without saying so, as it doesn't communicate with words. On some level, it must know that once words are spoken, the message has already been misunderstood.

There took place a conversation between Dan Rather, CBS Anchor and Mother Teresa years ago that I resonate with. The interview went a little something like this:

Dan Rather: What do you say during your prayers?
Mother Teresa:  I listen.
Dan Rather: Well then, what does God say?
Mother Teresa: He listens. And if you don't understand that, I can't explain it to you.

I've learned that I can't desire something that I already have - but I can fully recognize it and allow myself to experience it. This was the start of a new Spiritual journey. Instead of chasing Spirit through books, workshops, lectures, etc, I decided to start living it, walking in it, taking notice of it in everything I do, everyone I see. That DIVINITY became apparent and I couldn't deny it, nor do I have any words for it. The best I can say about Spirit, is that it's meant to be experienced. One can not know Spirit, unless one experiences Spirit, and from what I've gathered, this experience is different for everyone. It's why there are millions of books, papers, churches, scriptures, classes, lectures ... the list goes on.

Spirit is a singular essence (prana, ruach, chi, shakti, energy, vibration, orgone, ka) experiencing itself billions of different ways. There are currently 7.8 billion people on this planet, vibrating at different frequencies - sometimes several different frequencies through the course of a day. Add in all life forms, flora and fauna, minerals, the air, the tides, fire - all the basic elements that we scientifically know of, and we have ourselves a Spirit that just can't be defined in words, and yet we walk among it, breath it, eat it, live it ... EVERY DAY AND IN EVERY MOMENT.

We like to think we know who we are - we do not.

It wasn't until I allowed myself to stop and observe my surroundings, with childlike eyes, pretending that everything I saw had no label or definition, where I got my first glance at the Spirit that seems to reside within myself. Some call it the "watcher" the "observer", as this is all it does. Spirit doesn't think ... it doesn't have to. Spirit doesn't hold the duality as the other parts of our being does, that is for the Soul ... and I'll write about that in another blog entry. Spirit can serve as an endless portal of energy, creation, understanding and knowledge ... if we allow ourselves to get to know it, acknowledge it and understand that this is the indestructible, the undefinable, the "what" doesn't belong to us.

We like to think we know who we are - we do not.

Moving closer to a Spiritual life for myself, has me becoming quieter and quieter. This pandemic year has definitely allowed me the time to fall silent. I've gotten the rare gift and challenge of wrestling with my mind, tearing down walls that don't belong here. The realization that I am NOT who I think I am was a mind blower! WHOOSH! I've always carried the feeling, the notion, that I have/had something wrong - the definition of myself never quite sat right with me. It wasn't until this year that it became clear that my thoughts and definitions were a good "try", a good attempt at knowing myself, but then also realized how far off the course I actually was. Really glad I humble well.

Walking in Spirit for me now means that I have choices. Choices in how I define life. Choices in how I react to situations and people. Choices in how I see my fellow brothers and sisters. My compassion has grown greatly. My sense and definition of purpose has been redefined. What I feel I am "owed" is close to being gone. What I feel I deserve, doesn't matter (mah-ter), as nothing belongs to me anyway. There is a new sense of freedom knowing that nothing in this 3D experience can hurt me, torture me, take something away from me, put me back ... in essence, there are no struggles, only experiences. The only struggles I have now are the ones that I make up in my mind, ego driven...and now I know it. My struggles can seem real, my earthly conditioning can seem real - but now I approach each one knowing that all it contains is "matter" ... and I get to choose what matters.

I choose divinity. This feels more real to me than life ever has.

I've known about "Manifestation" and the plethora of definitions, the many perspectives,  all the "how to's", to the point where I lost interest for many years. The subject became redundant, the information rehashed. Some of you may relate to this? However, it still runs the whole spectrum of groups currently in existence. We find this subject matter within our communities, spoken through our community leaders, our family/friends circles, even in ourselves. So I began to take a different look at it ... I then experienced it first hand. Now THAT was a "Ah-Ha" moment.
                                        ...and I'm going to share what I learned.

2020/Pandemic Year - I've been fortunate in that 2020 brought me the opportunity to tune in and dig deep within myself. I haven't ever, I don't think, been given circumstances that allowed me to grow and heal so much. Growth happened. Spiritual expansion and understanding - HAPPENED. Looking back through the year thus far, I can see clearly where Manifestation played a dynamic role in my life - self created, due to the will-ingness on my part. I learned how to create on a different level this year.

While waist deep in healing work this year - AND THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO SHARE - I realized  when I focused on a specific issue, or several at a time, this healing experience produced and magnified more of the same experience/s that caused me pain. I'm grateful I recognized this...as I kept wondering, "why does this keep happening?" or "Why am I dealing with this again? I thought it was already healed". Can you relate to this? I'd always figured that "stuff" coming up was part of the healing process, which is true; this is part of the healing process. What I realized though, it's a bit like Pandora's Box - my focus on healing was actually creating these "new" situations, that again, mirrored my pain. It wasn't happening outside of myself, although this is where I experienced it...tangible in an odd sort of way. I went deeper with this phenomenon ... the "I" aspect of myself created this situation with a different face, or in a different place. WHOA!!!!

At this point, my jaw dropped and I had to admit, this was a definition of the word MANIFEST aka CREATION, I'd never thought of before. It gave me absolute clarity to what was happening. I could not deny my mind had a role to play here. Some of these things were happening BECAUSE of me. Just wow. Humble Pie?...anyone?

This realization gave me a tremendous amount of power and control over what I want to experience and HOW I want to experience it. I'll take it as a gift - yes indeed.

Everyone experiences places within themself that needs healing. We are constantly in different states of mind, often times all at once. With that, our focus is essential to obtain the goal, so we ARE going to have to rehash old habits, look at our behaviors and our conditioning. It's going to be a natural process to create more of the same until we obtain an understanding on how to release the root, at least get comfortable with whatever ails our hearts, to where it isn't a part of our daily lives, nor affecting our future any longer.

While moving through all that this year, I've also been in a space, blessedly so, to be able to create new experiences, and witness these things being born outside of me - some are even blossoming right now...and it feels FANTASTIC! It feels like a victory in a year filled with an unknown virus (scientists are still trying to becomes masters over this thing. Hats off to them), wild fires, civil unrest, politic nightmares, economic distress and all the others things that just don't feel good right now.

This is the point where I asked myself how much time I need to give to my healing process?, knowing I will manifest situations that parallel the original pain. The glory in this though, is now I know what's happening and I have a new found freedom in controlling what manifests. I also get to dedicate my time toward building my future legacy ... as Legacy has come up a lot this year -  that story is for another post though.

For this post ...

I decided I'm going to experiment by applying the 80/20 Rule. I'm going to focus 80% of my precious time on creating my future legacy, and 20% on the healing process, because let's face it, healing old wounds HAS to be done. This will challenge my thinking in any given moment, as thoughts tend to be flighty, mine are at times anyway. Watching and checking in with my thoughts has gotten much easier and has started to become second nature. I've always been a participant of the different "watch your thoughts" clans out there roaming the planet.

Try it for 2 weeks yourself and observe what happens when you are paying attention to your thoughts and the frequency of them. What's the percentage/s of time you give to each thought stream and what are the patterns you notice? You can then determine if this is what you want to be:

A. Focusing on - as this will manifest your experience in the very next moment.

OR

B. Change the focus toward your goals and manifesting, perhaps, your own legacy! Your personal power lies in getting to choose which one. There's room for both, or perhaps you need to determine the balance of each one depending on what your goal is. I feel you get what is being said here...

Create your own percentage that addresses both, but to where you experience more of the Legacy energy than you do the painful healing process (which again, just NEEDS to be done). Seriously - and it ain't no funz, neither.

I encourage one just do it! ...
                   ... for the sake of yourself and humanity.

I'll close this entry out by saying, manifestation has my attention once again. I'll keep you posted on how this progresses...