THYME TO UNWIND MASSAGE

There came a time when the realization hit me that perhaps everything I currently believe in intellectually/emotionally/Spiritually, everything I feel, all that I've learned and adopted, how I "work" and function on basic levels ... every facet of who I think "I Am", came from an outside source. That's quite a big box to unload and one that I knew would take time unpacking, depending on how dedicated to those box/es I stay. I say boxes because once I started digging, I found, and still find, smaller boxes within boxes.

I've since came across several pieces of information that suggests approximately 3% of the mind consists of pure Consciousness. The rest of the mind is made up of UN-consciousness - the things we think and do that we're not aware of, nor in control of. I like a good challenge and want to experience life in complete awareness. Instead of letting the mind dictate my life, I started using my mind as a tool of sorts, that is directed and controlled by the Consciousness. This practice is what is known as the difference of being "asleep" and the process of "Waking Up". Aware, ascended. Aware ... fully aware and awake of one's self. This is all it is. We either live with the mind controlling us, or we take control and start living in  a way that is outside the norm. In fact, once realization is fully experienced, once the veil is removed, it's almost impossible to fully go back to sleep.

Up until these recent years, I've taken great strides to create and experience my own belief systems. These are the ones where I've done my own searching and seeking and have taken these truths within me, put them into practice and made them mine. I'll admit these are usually things that run against the conditioning I was indoctrinated into, either purposefully, but most often than not by ignorance. The blind leading the blind. Conditioned people, conditioned me and in turn, I conditioned others.

Imagine what the experience would be like to take all your beliefs about life (and yourself), including the meaning of it, and turn it upside down as if all of it was false? Every bit of it, including the beliefs you've taught yourself through the years. Even those can't be trusted at this point because your beliefs you created may be rooted, or stem from another belief system that conditioned you into this "new" one. See how twisted that gets? ... it happens quickly too.

SO - I dumped it...and it's an important practice on my path because it's never ending. Over the years, I've let go of some heavy hitters in my conditioning. How I relate to people based on what I learned. How I see society based on what I've been told. I let go of the concept of GOD, because I was "told" there is one, without ever experiencing my Spirituality for myself, without experiencing god for myself. This became my number one focus because I already come with the understanding its about mind, body and Spirit. I can grasp the mind, because I experience controlling it daily ... I understand the body because well, that's what I DO for a living, but the Spirit? How does one grasp the Spirit? One can't control the Spirit, or physically touch it, like the body. It's difficult to deal with since it's seemingly invisible (or is it?). How do I go about knowing my Spirit?

There are a gazillion ways to go about this trek. Books, classes, meditations, prayers, daily practices, groups, etc. - but the way to know the Spirit is to always go "IN". Inward, always inward. Go in blind and go in brave.

... because when it comes to Perception, true perception lies in the hidden secrets of the Consciousness. As we travel the narrow road of the consciousness, we start to acknowledge and find the higher truths. These truths will burn through anything we've ever been taught and told from an outside source. Perception then starts to change frequency and the mind starts to expand. The spark of the Consciousness starts to take over the conditioning.

I'll share this with all of you, once you come across a Universal Truth of Creation - YOU WILL KNOW IT. There will be no doubt, and you may want to be sitting down for it when those truths hit you, because most likely, its going to be all about you and you'll need a thick skin to handle looking at yourself from this higher "perspective" - but this is where it HAS to start. We can't fix whats "out there", until we correct what is "in here"...

The body is a projection and emanates (like a prism) our state of inner-wellbeing based on what is going on in our minds. No matter what state the body is in, the things we do with it and TO it, is a reflection of what is happening within our minds at any given time.
Should we be living in a conscious way ... intentional and fully awake, we experience a healthy body, a relatively pain free body; a body that's working correctly without medication needed to control something. I'm not talking about needed medications due to health issues out of our control, or injuries, etc., I'm talking about the overall health of the body.

Trust me when I say this, it all starts with the health and balance of the mind. We have 2 choices here ... we either allow our multiple egos to control it - born from our conditioning, often times multiple lives of conditioning, OR, we take control and allow that 3% (suggested percentage) or so of our awakened mind, our Consciousness, come to the forefront and start to cleanse away the layers upon layers of untruths. Some call this the Christ mind, the Buddha mind, the "enlightened" mind, a state of being achieved once we reach that point of living Consciousness. No longer conditioned, no longer living by questioning ourselves, no longer suffering or struggling. Once all "matter" is cleansed from our lens', we experience correct Perception. And that's pure GOLD when that happens. That takes alchemy, but doable - it's a must really.

Approximately 7.8 Billion people need to wake up. That's amazing to me. Seems like such a big task, a deep task, a monumental TASK. Then I remember my job is just one of those people ... me. I AM my task. I'll do my work so that I can assist others. This is just part of my Legacy here ... but it's a good one and one I'm more than happy to do. But it starts with me, every single time.

It's going to start with you as well. I trust if you're reading this, came across this somehow and somewhere, it's a calling to you. A deep and direct call. I don't believe in coincidence - due to my own experiences of coming across writings such as this and it hits me in a way that I needed to hear.

So if you're reading this right now - congratulations! This message is yours should you decide to claim it.

Until next time ~ Be Well and Stay Well

Photo credit to: Tracie Howard

When I think about "who am I Being?", it's a long contemplation with lists of words, mainly adjectives ... also, various emotions are invoked with this question. Who am I Being? My first reaction is to check in with my emotions and see where my sense of Peace is. Am I currently at peace? Do I feel comfortable? Am I able to clear my mind easily? Physically, is my breath deep in the lower Dantian? The answers to these questions, for me, are gauges to answer the bigger question of "Who Am I Being?"

Aligning myself becomes essential when defining the Who Am I? Basically, walking a Spiritual path where my thoughts, actions/words and emotions, are moving through and with the path of the Soul to a state of Ascension. This is no small order, by any means. So the question is a very BIG multifaceted question. It demands utter transparency with myself. It calls for taking ownership of what I'm creating in this very moment, along with what I created in the prior moment ... as the prior moment and who I was in "that" moment, created who I am being right NOW and what I'm currently experiencing! Owning every particle of what I'm experiencing, with the acknowledgement that nothing and no one other than me has control over that, can be humbling and enlightening!

Through the work I've been doing that inspires my personal and Spiritual growth, there comes a point where I have to stop with the input of information and actually put into practice the things I've learned to see if it rings in as A TRUTH for me. What that requires often times, is changing my PERSONALITY to reflect what it is that I wish to experience. How am I to truly know a way of Being if I don't apply those traits and attributes of that specific state - state of Spirit, state of Mind, state of Action.

The Innermost, the Absolute, the undeniable breath of creation ... Consciousness, The Spirit - is the driving force. What we think of as the "I", the little person reluctantly being pushed toward what it says it wants in the picture here, is the ego. It can be the opposing force that prevents us from reaching our potential heights of who we actually are.  It's so subtle at times, we don't even know there is resistance. Other times, we absolutely know where we go kicking and screaming through our Spiritual evolution. There always comes a point where I know I have to change my personality.

Changing my personality becomes exciting because I get to explore what this new found vibration of Being really feels like. What can this new vibration do that the previous vibration couldn't, based on scientific and universal law of vibration, frequency and resonance. The higher the vibration, the closer to my truer self I become. By following suit, I get the opportunity to know myself better, appreciate myself more and create in ways that are unbridled and unbound by heavier "matter" while I was in a lower frequency.

THIS IS THE GAME CHANGER, my dear readers.

Once we decide to change our personality/mind-set, we then get to go out and decide who we are "committed to Being". Once an action is taken (thought, speech, action), this can be described as who you are committed to being ... or you wouldn't have taken action on it in the first place, no? Sometimes, its not clear what's happening. We think and believe we are taking action on outside influences, but no ... we take action stemming from who am I Being in that moment. From moment to moment, we get to choose.

Lesson in action:
I'm going to be doing work this week, and encourage all to do the same, as assigned by one of my teachers, Jessica Gutierrez. 3 questions were posed to ponder and get clarity on.

1. Who am I Being?
2. Who am I committed to Being?
3. Who am I?

I'll allow this to be taken on as one of my "flow" sessions. This is where "I", the ego, will step aside and allow my innermost to fully take the helm to show me, teach me and guide me in answering these questions. When I write about it, I'll become remote ... remote writing is a technique where I put pen to paper and without any thought, allow myself to spill out onto the paper. It's amazing to experience this. I highly recommend trying it.

This exercise is perfect for a Soul seeker like myself. It gives me a platform to take stock in where I've been hanging out. What are the common themes in my life right now and how do those frequencies resonate with my direction? Do I feel I'm heading in the direction that my heart/Soul desire? ... or am I resisting. It's important to get really clear in this area.

Who Am I Committed to Being?
I'm ultimately committed to Being that which has always been. I'm committed to exploring every possible opportunity that provides wholeness for my innermost. I'm committed to Being the "seeker" until there is no need to seek any longer. I'm committed to changing my Personality anytime it answers a call to a higher state of consciousness, awareness and understanding. I'm committed to releasing the matter that binds me, so that as I become more free, so do my experiences.

I am committed to continue my journey of the Soul.
I am committed to sharing this work with others, as we all need each other.
I am committed to allowing Creation, the Absolute, to experience itself through this little person that it referred to as the "I".

I AM the driving force of every experience. I AM the key in every moment of what happens next. I AM the controller in my control room.

My Divinity into Yours - Be well, Stay well...

IT'S THYME TO GO LONG into a subject which answers the Titled question posted here.

I've observed over the past several years, perhaps the last 7 especially, the deeper I search myself for the meaning of my life and in search of my truth, the emptier of people it becomes. "The more wisdom you attain and the more conscious you become, the crazier you will appear to others."  - this phrase has always made me chuckle...until it happened to me. It's becoming apparent there is truth in this quote.

Perhaps there's a bit of that going on. Scalar waves anyone? What my experience has consisted of though, is there seems to be a point where people are "done" hearing about it. Done hearing about my journey and growth, done hearing I've found another way, done listening to how my life and my perspective of it has changed.  I've always been curious how one can feel done when one hasn't explored these things for themself. What exactly are they "done" with?...Me?

Even more curious, is why others feel I'm asking anything from them. I ask nothing, I dictate nothing, I require nothing, I expect nothing. I'm on my journey - they on theirs. Enough said.

I've been asked, more than a few times, "Does everything have to be Spiritual with you?", "Can we just keep it light?" When I sit with this, I realize for 43 years, my life was given into this world, along with everything that influences it - basically collective consciousness and major conditioning. No one taught me about the Spiritual world inside me, even though I've always known it was there. A part of me has always sought out higher wisdom and Spiritual affairs. Only in the last 4 years of continual searching, researching, digging, questing my fibers to reach the point where I can answer this question with a big fat YES! It has taken me 4 years to be able to wake up in the morning and actually know that I'm Spirit first. To "think" spiritually, to "speak" from spirit and to "act" in a spiritual way - and still far from mastery.

Yes, I strive to live a Spiritual life! Why not?, I've been living in this world as it is all this time, and I'm ready for something different. I've worked really hard to obtain, what I feel, is the itty-bitty beginnings of higher knowledge within myself. Curious, always curious where a path will take me. The pay off has been the bits of knowledge absorbed along the way, the gift of relaxing into this vessel and into this human experience. The deep Spiritual experiences I've had is better entertainment than any TV show I've ever seen. Shedding the lies and illusion of this place has been a gift ... a real gift.

DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SPIRITUAL?

No surprises here - whether we want to believe in anything or not, or whether we pursue this subject or not - it doesn't matter - and I'll tell you why; Because EVERYTHING here is Spiritual. I'll say it again.

EVERYTHING HERE THAT EXISTS, IS SPIRITUAL.

How are we to get around talking about this one? We can't, unless we ignore it. Perhaps a better question then would be, "Do you have to run at such and such a frequency all the time?", "Can't you pull back on your vibration a bit?" I could, absolutely. But I don't want to anymore. 43 years at/in a frequency where I allowed the world to form and shape me. A frequency with a glass ceiling, a frequency where I didn't even bother searching for my higher self; I call that the grey zone, and in my opinion, it's dangerous to the Soul. Very dangerous. I got in a lot of trouble, found myself to be spiritually sick, in that grey zone.

Humans tend to define the mundane subjects in life as "keeping it light" - while Spirituality is the "heavy" subject. Where did we learn that searching our inner-selves or accepting ourselves in a loving way is "the" heavy subject, and the state of the world we live in is lighter conversation? Personally, when I get involved in conversations that discuss this world, I walk away feeling very heavy, helpless and hopeless. THAT is heavy to me. I just can't do it anymore ... don't want to do it anymore. This has produced the isolation spoken of earlier in this piece. Many people have migrated out of my life. Some have walked away, others have ran and still others have straight up ghosted me - after years and years and years of friendship, and I'm talking friends AND family...yes, family.

Are we not able to hold space for each other? When I get excited about an aspect of my Spiritual growth, and I share it, why does this seem to turn others off? I am only sharing my experience...what happened to me...what I've been shown.

Life has become a lonely place indeed and will continue to do so as I run head on into the realms of my inner-being. I always joke about finding a cave and becoming a hermit. I'm beginning to think it's not a joke but an actual thing that happens to people when they start to unplug from the world. The 2 worlds no longer mesh together and at some point, one looks around them and realizes they stand alone. Not in martyrdom, just alone.

          The number of paths to enlightenment are countless

... no one path is better than the other; yet there are some very contrasting paths compared to the "straight" path, so spoken about in almost every sacred text, religion, spiritual sect, or truth seeker out there right now.

Before this piece goes further, I have to remind myself of the truth that my very next experience stems from how I'm thinking NOW...right now, what I say NEXT and what my actions are going to be. So if my goal is to experience something different in the very next moment, I have to look behind me to see where I was and ask the question of whether I want that to be my next experience. I also have to assess where I'm at spiritually, emotionally and mentally, right now. Right NOW is the very key moment of creation, it is also where we find the "straight path", the "razors edge". This is IT's "core", it's where the tools one has accumulated up to this point, are available all in one place. I am the only one who has access and permission to use them when it comes to creating my very next moment. No one controls 'that very next moment' except myself, the Consciousness part of myself. Depending on the tools I choose to use, this will shape the next nano-second of Creation. It happens THAT fast.

Reminding myself I am Sovereign, helps navigate  my path. I've learned to side-step  away from wasting my spiritual time by following pathways down rabbit holes of spiritual teachings, teachers, gurus, religions, sects, cults, etc. - and the worst of the worst - Spiritual Cons.

Not a very high resonating frequency, for sure ... especially amongst those who created it for the 'soul' purpose to divert people away from themselves, their path and their purpose.

The best way to identify these groups or people, is to THINK.

Every seeker has their own path and being sovereign allows the freedom to explore whatever it is we want. It's a beautiful freedom we have, and powerful when it comes to our growth. Every detail in every given moment is created by the individual ... every single detail of the experience. I can't think of any better moment than to utilize the tool of CRITICAL THINKING other than Right Now.

Two GREAT questions to ask yourself when someone in spiritual authority, or in casual conversation like we have here in this blog piece, is talking to you are these:
1. Why am I being told this?
2. Where did they hear/learn it? ... a tag question I like to ask also, is, "How have you personally applied this information or lesson/s?"

Based on the answers, I then learn how educated, or not, they are on the subject of what they speak, along with the depth, or not, of their experiences on the topic. This helps me navigate how much credit I should give with what is being shared.

Often times, unfortunately, individuals are rehashing spiritual material they've read, learned or heard from someone else without EVER applying the material to themself. Here, they have missed the whole journey! How can someone know what a truth is when they don't apply it to themselves first to determine whether it's "Their" truth or not? What's even more noticeable, is they speak about spiritual matters with so much conviction, it's easy for most to just go along with the program. The excitement, passion and sometimes ... persuasion, can pull an individual down roads they have no place being. Although, this is part of a journey for the seeker too - following blindly before one has Spiritually matured to start asking those hard questions, before the seeker starts to put into practice what is being delivered to explore if it's their truth or not.

But let us learn discretion now!

I highly encourage the questions, especially when you find yourself excited in what you are hearing. THIS is when discretion is most critical. I've put many "beliefs" to bed by exploring them thoroughly, and realizing it may be a truth?, but it's not MY truth. It's not part of MY path. Very helpful in navigation of the Soul journey.

OK

I'll close this entry with something I read the other day - ENJOY!

How do you know you are standing at a threshold of evolution?...Spiritual/Soul evolution? A strong pull to "level up" in one's Soul path. It happens so rarely, most don't understand the signs that show themselves to grab your attention to this process. We as humans, tend to make up stories of denial even when the signs are harsh and in our face. Even the pure hearted Truth Seeker will tend to resist what they truly desire to experience and understand - this is me, was me.

Why is this? Keep reading for just a facet of this answer...

We're going to talk SURRENDER & SACRIFICE - 2 words that will have many running already. I know this, because I've been the runner, and depending on future circumstance, I may run from this evolutionary process again. Although, I hope not.

Surrender and walking through the initiate doorway - We work our way to this point and freeze, or we trip and fall back down the stairs into the space we've just come from. Sometimes we just stand at the threshold and wait, seemingly forever, to see what might happen. That door? - we can dance around it, turn our back to it, pretend we are ready to elevate our inner being to a higher frequency; and yet, until we choose to release the "matter" we have collected through aeons (see my blog on matter, here), our conditioning, the actual suppression of our Soul; we will continue to hear the calling of ascension and live in our frustration of why our world isn't what we want to be experiencing. To pass through to the other side takes the sacrifice of what we need to shed (the false who, the heavy "matter"), to be able to step into who we KNOW we truly are. This equates to the spiritual teachings in every major religion when it speaks to the death and the resurrection. Death/Transmutation from the unseen and learnt bonds, and then Resurrecting into the understanding of our true Sovereign natures.

SURRENDER is one of the most selfless acts we can perform for our Soul journey. Surrender, coupled with Sacrifice, is a technique that's needed for the momentum of our SOUL. It is the ultimate Self Love maneuver. Surrender is Soul food. Most people cringe away from this immediately, even hearing the words trigger deep emotions in many, even repulsion.

Lets talk RESISTANCE then.

Every time we ascend a level, raise our frequency, accept another rung on Jacobs Ladder (so to speak), it is because we've moved forward, which naturally leaves something behind, being the "whatever is required", to be sacrificed. Energy can not vibrate at a higher frequency when heavier matter is attached to it. So how is this comprehended? Why does it seem so difficult and take so long?

Its because of our resistance to release the heavier matter, for many reasons we resist. The energy wants to rise, wants to expand, and yet we keep it all compartmentalized in an orderly fashion to control the natural process/es. We hang onto things, situations, people, habits and behaviors ... even when they are harmful to us, on the mere fact that it's familiar to us. We may fear lost opportunities if we let go, or we fear the work it may take to release a lower vibration, we fear the maintenance needed to hold that new level of ascension. For some, addictions are strong "bindings" to lower frequencies.

Let me tell you a secret , where you find your Soul journey is now? - IT TOOK AN ASCENSION, probably many ascensions, to where you find yourself maintaining your NOW. This isn't unfamiliar work to your Soul - it knows it's way, it has the calling to the direction it longs to be. It knows, YOU know, exactly what goes on down here (earth, 3D realm). What is standing in it's way? - Matter, mind Matter. The stuff that manifests, constantly, from within the frequency we find ourselves now. Remember, you are a creator with the same power to create as the Creative Consciousness. You ARE the consciousness.

Here's what I've learned recently...

I recently allowed myself to step through the initiate doorway to accept a higher frequency. Why not, right? I've been in this vibration till the end, until there was nothing more to learn. I restrained and resisted, many times. Fear, not knowing if I could maintain a higher frequency. Nervous because I don't know what happens at a higher frequency. Fear of releasing patterns I've always known. The cool thing about this experience, is I thought I had to release absolutely EVERYTHING before I could walk through. Not So! I had to release some, yes, absolutely; Releasing the charge in some of my compartmentalized "matter". I was allowed to step over with some residual matter. This was exciting to learn and felt like a grace was given to me because I was finally Willing to sacrifice some, enough, to pass through.

An easy way to identify where we need to evolve next, is to pay attention to what triggers us, in ANY way. The next step in evolution 'can' be as easy as choosing to avoid any and all circumstances that resonate at the frequency which doesn't match our own, this is wisdom. Diffusing the charge with healing, and acceptance of its lesson to us.

Sometimes, often times, it goes much deeper than this. The situation/s that really inhibit the Souls journey, Dark Night of the Soul experiences for example, would qualify as a major shift, and major ascension, up the ladder of Jacob. These experiences are often tied to aeons of human conditioning and pain, the real heavy dark matter that hangs on the Soul and keeps it entrapped on the 3D plane. Trauma of many kinds qualify here as well.

There is no one right or wrong way to ascend, there is, however, one path that allows it. How we all get to that path varies. What is consistent though, once we arrive at the Threshold of ascension, we must sacrifice 'Matter'. How much or how little is between you and your higher power. This is why 'no man knows the hour', as this process and agreement pertains to the direct relationship the Soul has with the Spirit, who has the relationship with the pure consciousness.

I stood at the threshold for a little over a year before I decided, "I have nothing to lose and everything to gain". I'm through the door now, the portal, a new paradigm before me. I've taken the first few steps forward, looking at the open plane before me ... ready to remake myself based on the Soul journey. I don't feel I "walked away" from anything as much as I feel I've "walked into" ... forward, always forward. It's exciting to me now, knowing my last cycle is coming to a close. What lies before me? ... just like my last cycle, I don't know. It's inspiring though, looking out over the plane - fresh and new, untouched, with the full understanding that I now get to create that future.

If there is something here you, the reader, would like a deeper understanding on, contact me and lets start some dialog.

Until next time - Be Well, Stay Well!

I personally want to take Thyme here to recognize my brothers, my male counterparts, the Kings, Knights and Naives that are with me everyday. I acknowledge your presence, I see your Divinity and I hear your words and desires. Here I hold space for you, always.

Glory is the day when a man knows he can set aside his sword, straighten his crown and walk in the shoes of Divine Masculine energy; A quality of unadulterated FORCE the human mind can only begin to comprehend. Distorted it is not, in any way, nor on any grounds. In it's pure form, it exists in it's power and allows that power to BE! It swims and exists in the same waters and the same ether as the Divine Feminine - LOVE.

From my own perspective, and mine alone, I've been observing my male counterparts for years (over 40+ years) and believe I have learned why our boys, our Fathers, our brothers, uncles and cousins, our husbands and male friends, are in so much pain and detached from their true "nature". I have seen, witnessed and experienced many many things when it comes to coexisting with the masculine. I raised a boy, who is now considered a man. I watched him go through the trials and tribulations defining this concept for himself...and hopefully will continue to do so until he fully understands what a Beautiful, Bountiful, Uninhibited, Spiritual power he has in the palms of his hands and in the depths of his heart. His birth right. If you are a man reading this, YOUR birth right! If you are a woman reading this, also your birth right.

Healing is a vulnerable task for most - and one that many shy away from. Mention healing to a hurt/broken masculine, and you'll be hit with instant resistance, most of the time. It takes pure strength and bravery to approach a masculine who has many pains in the heart, neglected of his youth and emotionally traumatized, with seemingly nowhere to put it. HUGE HUGS to those of you who've experienced anything less than being acknowledged as a Divine Being, a Sacred/Kindred Spirit and the archetype of the Divine Masculine. I humbly bow in honor for you ...

I acknowledge I can only speak of the Divine Masculine as I know it inside of myself. Healing this energy, that is the perfect counterpart to the Divine Feminine in me, is a goal, and a task, that has become of importance at this time. To move forward in life with balanced energies, flowing without restriction or fear, is something I'm striving for. I too desire to know this aspect of myself; It's long overdue in my opinion, and needed if I want to be a Creator. Yes indeed.

"Men Have Nipples Too!" is a project, a bridge if you will, born from hearing a brother tell his story, showing the sweet vulnerability a man can have when he's fearless in asking for what he knows makes him thrive. I heard that story ... RESONATE with that story, and now I've made it a personal "call to action", to  create a platform for Men, about Men, driven and executed by Men to be heard. Healing begins, when one is heard. In Thyme, men will take this project over and be THE VOICE while I work and support it behind the scenes...for now, I'm one Sister swimming in a sea of her broken brothers, and it pains me in a way I can not describe. Heartbreaking really - and I want to change that. Now. Today.

WHY?

...Because our son's need it, our baby boys need that platform. Our young men crave understanding, nurturing and solid male figures to lean on and learn from. Boys and men of all ages deserve, and need, to be heard.

Most importantly, we need to be reminded of that Wild, Raw, Powerful Masculine energy that swells within them to be set free...in healthy ways, without obstacles and distractions, without labels of what "masculinity" means (we have been severely lied to here people), as TRUE masculinity can only be experienced and LIVED! It's Thyme people - we need our King energies again, not this broken masculinity that's been bleeding and draining us for hundreds of years now (most likely longer than that).

What will and what has, already been created for this project:

PODCASTS: Under Construction
Interviews with men and leaders in the world who focus on connecting the dots for the Divine Masculine. Healers, Coaches, Teachers, Spiritual Guides...etc, will be featured on this show along with resources for further information and growth.

INSTAGRAM: www.instagram.com/menhavenipplestoo/
This account is already up and live. Go ahead and click it, Follow it and celebrate it!

YOUTUBE: Under Construction
There will be a special "Room", within the Spirit Room, dedicated to this project. Additional interviews with men and experts in the field will be featured here, along with resources for growth and understanding.

GROUPS: Under Construction
Whether a guest speaker has knowledge to share, or men gather to remind and be reminded they are powerful, beautiful and perfect in their masculine energies, these groups will be multi-serving opportunities to grow, heal and empower yourselves.

It took a hot minute to bring this project to the forefront. It took deep Spiritual exploration on my part, getting over myself for being a woman speaking of such things, starting the healing process of the Divine Masculine within myself and my shyness of being in the lime light. I'M OVER IT THOUGH!! I'm not one to let a passion of the heart sit in a corner neglected. I'm not one to sit back while I see harm being done ... no, contrare ... I stand up and execute what fires my Soul. Hmmm...I believe this is the work of the Divine Masculine in me, isn't it?

If you find a passion was sparked here, and would like more information about this project ... if you'd like to share a story I could highlight and share with others, if you'd like to be interviewed about your experience/s (whether its your healing journey, your pain journey or realizations), if you know of programs, seminars, retreats groups and leaders that align with MEN AND MASCULINITY, reach out to me and lets start a conversation.

Until next time - BE WELL, STAY WELL!

WHAT SPELLS ARE YOU CASTING? ... when you address yourself or speak of others, or when you make decisions to experience life a certain way? The people you allow in your life, the material you read, the information coming through the TV set, music you listen to; How is this Creating your experience?...or better yet, the illusion of your reality?

If I'm going to be a voice in the crowd ... speaking with absolute intention when I do?, becomes a very conscious effort to stay aware with my choice of words. Words/Sounds, vibrate at a frequency (basic science), and this frequency has an effect on the receiving end. I understand what I share, either in written form or verbally, will ripple to a receiving party. By keeping my words as close to my values and morals as possible,  I ensure an effort is taken to create a favorable outcome - yet I also realize, I have no control over the interpretation once it travels through the layers of filtering on the receiving end. So "tricky" to navigate at times...

The written word has tremendous POWER! We all know this, yet rarely stay aware of it. Examples of this power can be found in places like our Holy Books and scriptures of all cultures. Here in the US, this power is found in our Constitution. Written contracts (a type of "binding" spell), such as bank loans, licenses, certificates, etc. also pack a tremendous amount of power. The written word takes an initial thought and manifests it by way of "Spelling". When we think, we are actually creating with the power of our intention. Once it's spoken or written, the action of conjuring becomes manifest! To us in our daily lives, this is just something we do naturally, without much thought. We are unaware of what's happening though.

We learned how to "spell" in elementary school and we've been spelling ever since.
So let's explore it ...

I like this passage from John:
John 6:63 "The words I have spoken to you are both Spirit and Life"
This is what we're going to look at, as this passage sums up what is happening when we speak or write.

I am going to call it by an old term - MAGIK (Spirit, life, energy, creation, miracles). I'm able to use this word without getting riled over whether this is a good word or a bad word, nor do I identify myself with the stereotype persona that accompanies this word. I'm merely ME, no label attached. Many will shy away, still to this day, as we've been conditioned to think Magik and Spelling is a sin (taboo'ish at a minimum), although we perform it 24/7.

With that said, this blog piece isn't to dive into whether magik or spelling, conjouring, mantra, singing or prayer is sinful or not - This piece is meant to explore the power of what we say and think. A wake-up call perhaps. A loooong overdue wake-up call.

"The word “spell” comes from the Proto-Germanic “spellan”, meaning “to tell”, which in turn gave rise to the Old English “spellian” and then “spell”.  The first recorded instance of spell, being used to indicate writing or reciting the individual letters of a word, was in the early 15th century.  It would later be given the meanings “incantation” (late 16th century) and “to take the place of” (early 18th century)." - pulled from several sources on the internet.

Of course written communication dates back further than the 15th century, thousands of years actually.

With the most Enlightened intentions, we use words in prayer, chanting, singing and positive speech. The frequency level, stemming from a high vibrational wave, creates a moment in time which dictates the next moment, manifested from the moment prior - and usually causes a really good feeling for the person/s. Be aware then, we create this way utilizing low vibrating frequencies too - creating the next moment on the foundation of what?....low frequency. This is the answer to the old question of, "Why should I watch my thoughts?" ... and should, in my opinion, be the very first lessons to master for anyone choosing to explore a Spiritual path. Control of the mind is number one and the most difficult journey to master...but this is where it must start.

As a Practitioner and Coach, I'm trained to "listen" to what my clients speak. I listen to what they say about themselves, what they say about their lives, their body, friends, family and work. I pay attention to the frequency of their words and overall demeanor. This assists me when I evaluate someone's energy. If a client comes in and states, "I'm a mess" ... there is a powerful energy that resonates from these words. I encourage a different persective of speech. An example would be:

Client: "My body is a mess and completely screwed up".
...the language that's encouraged for healing is this:
Me: "Thank you body, for holding me together this long and showing me the strength and determination you have for my life. Thank you for protecting me, you have done such a beautiful job".

Are you able to sense the difference in energy between these two statements? The first statement is constrictive, often times showing in the physical body when someone arrives at my studio. The second statement however, is much softer and forgiving. The second statement is an acknowledgement of the self, with gratitude and COMPASSION. Often times, a person will take a deep breath hearing the softer version, as they realize YES, absolutely their body has been doing beautiful work at keeping it together.

So I'd like to invite you to watch your thoughts. For one week, follow and be aware of what you are thinking in any given moment. Call it self exploration week.
What to do:
1. Keep a notebook next to you to track reoccurring thoughts and patterns. Also note how those thoughts make you feel.
2. Try to find an alternative way to think about something that makes it softer, or more forgiving (like the example I gave above).
3. "Think" how you want to feel and then make a list of actions that will give you this feeling.
4. Stay aware of your tone with yourself and with other people.
5. Control your mind, always and in All-Ways.

Remember, you are casting spells in every moment. I call them spells and recognize them as spells, because the word "spell" in and of itself, holds power. Just think how this word makes you feel and you will understand what I'm saying here. Spells are neither "good" or "bad", spells just use the Universal power that is already accessible to every one and every thing. We, as creators, can use this energy in a state high or low frequency.

It's time to raise the bar ... and it starts with the spells we cast against ourselves. Self awareness and also self accountability.

Much love to you. Be Well and Stay Well.

Diving head first into this subject ... I'll be doing a YouTube video about this as well, but needed the quiet space to get what's in my head out in writing...as there seems to be A LOT that needs saying on this subject.

"LOVE" - a seemingly simple word, one most of us say at least once a day.

I'll say this right now though, we do not understand the POWER of this word, nor it's energy...not even close, yo! My hope here is to plant a seed of awareness of what this energy actually is. It'll blow your mind, it'll knock your socks off, it'll change the way you approach the concept of L-O-V-E.

LOVE is not a word. It's NOT a noun; nor is it merely SEX. It's not meant to be degraded into a label - or something that is presented lightly. Many many many make this error...innocently of course, as we are not taught, nor shown, the ultimate power of this word. Amazing really.

WHAT IS IT THEN???

To put it in laymen terms, and if it were to be a word, it would be a verb. The original action of CREATION itself! The darkness (feminine) before it presented itself (masculine), transformed itself, into LIGHT. It's the "original" source of EVERYTHING that is and everything that shall be, ever was and moving forward to whatever and wherever it moves. The nature of this energy is unadulterated, unfathomable, incomprehensible in its totality ... the perfect balance, alignment and centeredness. It also contains within itself the duality of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine...again, in PERFECT balance and harmony. Think Yin/Yang energy, one can not exist without the other. The light and the dark, integrated into one FORCE - THE FORCE (Star Wars understood this). Both are needed. This is the HOLY marriage written about in so many scriptures through ancient writings, through all cultures. Let us not forget there was a time when our ancestors, and spiritual ancestors, understood this balance and actually honored it for what it "IS" - the "I AM" that is spoken about in many spiritual teachings, stated in various different ways. I'll stick with the "I AM", for most have heard this phrase, and its a "go to" here in the west. Trust me though, there many many words and phrases describing this sacred energy in every culture, around the globe, throughout all of history.

Somewhere along the line, LOVE became blurred. Perhaps it was intentional to blur the truth. Humans started to sequester the power and balance of this energy. It seems to have fallen, right along with us, into this 3D realm we "think" is actual reality. It's not reality...

LOVE has become so battered, so perverse, too many labels, imbalanced - first within ourselves, to where we don't recognize it any longer. We have taken the Holy sexual union and dropped it down into the dirt of desire, greed and often times ... war. Where war exists, love does not - starting within yourself. It ALWAYS starts within yourself.

Love is bastardized through our media, hollywood, music, religions, politics - and very sadly, our homes. We as a collective, no longer honor who and what we really are. Very few recognize who they actually are, completely lost, trapped and enslaved to the human experience. No longer able to connect with their Spirit. No longer able to channel that energy...and so love has become just a word, an energy we don't practice often enough, and for many, not at all.

If I were to ask you how many hours a day you spend in a state of LOVE, vs. how many hours you spend in your thoughts and emotions - what would your answer be?

If I were to ask you how many hours you spend seeking your Spirit vs. chasing the proverbial 3D life, what would you say?

If I were to ask how many of you at least live a balance between Spirit vs. Human, what would you say? Do your actions come from Spirit (love), or do they come from the Human (ego) trying to build a good 3D life here (I'm not saying a good life is not what we should be trying to achieve, only that we invite Spirit into that creation)?

These are VERY important questions to answer for yourself. How else are you to know where you are currently vibrating at, what you are drawing to you ... what you are creating for yourself? Seriously, contemplate this.

The "ACTION" needed right now?:
1. Take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for yourself, always and IN all-ways!
2. Take note of what you think about. If your thoughts are negative, violent, vengeful, critical, low resonating - I guarantee, LOVE is missing in the equation - not sometimes, but EVERY TIME.
3. When you speak, what do you speak? Are you gossiping and talking down to others? Are you manipulating situations for personal gain, lying, cursing, damning others, judging who and what someone is? Again, LOVE is missing in this equation.
4. Take note of your emotions in every situation. Are you scared, nervous, depressed, confused, lost, hateful, jealous, etc ... LOVE is missing in this equation.
5. What information are you allowing into your energy fields? - quality of music, media, reading material, people in your life? Is LOVE in this equation?

The first action needed lies within SELF AWARENESS. We are unable to move into the energy of SPIRIT if we are lost in not knowing where we are with ourselves in the RIGHT NOW! Makes sense, right? Pretty damn simple to do too if you're willing to humble up and be honest with yourself.

LOVE  - Breaking the Chains!
1. Take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for yourself, always, and in all-ways!
2. Assess where you are right now, based on the questions asked above, and decide if this is where you want to be. Seriously, take your time with this exercise.
3. Understand how sacred, how incomprehensibly SACRED, your Spirit and Soul is. You are not who you "think" you are.
4. Then understand how sacred everyone around you is - whether they recognize themselves or not. Try not to get disturbed with how out-of-touch your brothers and sisters are here. Hold your focus on YOU...for now.
5. Pick up a serious practice of Soul searching and Spirit definition.
6. Start experimenting with allowing every thought, every emotion and every action to float through the screen/veil/filter of your Spirit.
7. Verbally give permission for your Spirit to intervene when your Soul is traveling off it's path. Surrender to the assistance that is then given. It'll always be for your highest.

For those of you who do not identify with the Spirit or the Soul, you can still practice this mindset by running your thoughts, words and actions through the filter of "KINDNESS".

Whether we/you are Spiritual or not, there is a rule to follow - HARM TO NO ONE. Always. Practice this and I promise, your world, your perceived reality?...will change.

Once you experience THAT change, there is no going back. You can no longer disregard the power, the force, the original creative energy of LOVE (the raw power of sexual energy). I'll write a separate blog entry about "sexual energy", as it too, will blow your mind.  It's not what you think it is.

I'll let this one rest here, although I could keep writing ... perhaps this entry is Part 1.

As always, these words are here for you to grow, contemplate, share with others; I will continue to share my explorative path as I travel it.

It took a tremendous amount of SURRENDER(ing) this past year, to where I find myself feeling the "promise" in the air, now.

...this feeling of promise has been showing itself all year actually. In both big and small ways, PROMISE, has made itself known. I chose to take notice and decided that I'd let it show me what it meant. The unfolding moments as the days, weeks and months past away this year, shows me a clear path of promise and opportunity. It seems I'm not alone in feeling this way either. Turning to electronic communications allowed me to touch base with many people, who too, are feeling that promise.

I started this blog awhile ago, but really dug into it this year...
A. I've had the time to dedicate to it
B. It's been on my list for a long time
C. Many big things need divine timing

I can say I've surrendered to many aspects of my thoughts, my emotions and Spiritual path this year of 2020 as I found myself right smack in the middle of a HISTORICAL time. I happened to choose "Surrender" as my word for the year. Yep ... divine timing at it's finest. I chose the word Surrender in December 2019. Little did I know, this was either an omen of what was coming, or a clear message from my guides that I'm going to have to let go of some rocks in the river and let it carry me through any rapids, switch backs ... the soft bends. My feeling now is it was a little of both.

The first thing I allowed myself to do, was to engage in some good ol grassroots clearing and healing...and then I dove into the hard work. You can read about some of those experiences in my previous blog entries (see archives). This year provided the perfect platform to perform a personal over-haul of everything I know myself to be and also learn what I'm truly made of. I grew - ALOT! ... and here I am, planning for my future because it feels and looks very promising. I lost many things that I held dear to me, and chose to let go of others (including relationships). I closed these aspects out with gratitude of the lessons, and love in my heart. Not all of them felt good, while others sent me down rabbit holes where I explored even deeper meanings to connections and certain patterns.

My work isn't done ... I have accepted my inner work is never done, however, I've learned how to keep moving, on the inside, with the soul journey. The Soul journey is what we're on. The Soul knows where it's going. Sometimes it's good to SURRENDER to that process and allow ourselves to flow with the Great Wheel, lest we be crushed by it.

As 2021 creeps closer ... and I take space to choose a new word for the year, I believe I will spend the last couple days here and Surrender what I have left. Seems fitting ...

CHEERS! BE WELL, STAY WELL!

SPIRITUAL BYPASS - a term coined by psychotherapist, John Welwood - RIP.
 
He defined this phenomenon as using “spiritual ideas and practices to sidestep personal, emotional ‘unfinished business,’ to shore up a shaky sense of self, or to belittle basic needs, feelings, and developmental tasks.” The goal of these practices is to achieve spiritual enlightenment. Some of you may also know this practice as cognitive dissonance. Because I work mainly on a spiritual level with individuals, I prefer the definition of Spiritual Bypass over CD. When I heard it, it was a "That's IT!" moment.

As I've been moving through this year of deep healing, this concept hit at the perfect time for me in my process. I literally STOPPED to ask myself, "Where do I spiritually bypass? Am I spiritually bypassing in any area?" Well, because I'm human, that answer was yes - not across the board, thank God, but in some areas that could be detrimental to my growth had I not come across this lesson. Spiritual bypassing hits deep once we remove the practice of it. By stopping this process, it rips the scab off wounds of our mental and spiritual states, exposing us to our raw, vulnerable, often times infantile states of being.

How have I Spiritually Bypassed?
1. Reading, studying, researching spiritual practices, but not practicing them fully. Not putting them through my filters to see if they are actual practices that I vibe with, believe in, or even suit me in my journey.
2. Writing down "to do" lists for growth, then stalling myself, distracting myself, before I complete the goal.
3. Allowing, and even creating, distractions that counter the inner work I want to do.

Spiritual growth and healing is very messy work. Very messy ... and can be extremely painful. It's why most hesitate from this process and choose instead to seek and look outside of themself for comfort. Comfort is a good word for Spiritual Bypassing.
1. Go to a guru and get lifted with positive messages.
2. Attend a high power/energy retreat that gets the adrenaline going and leaves you feeling empowered for a weekend.
3. Go to church and feel community for an hour.
4. Listen to a podcast or lecture on all we need to do is "think positive" and all our troubles will melt away.
5. Change your vibration and you can't be touched.

All these sound good, and they are all very healthy things to do - YES! No argument there - but there is a HUGE piece missing here in these processes. I've seen many speak away their weaknesses and trespasses by stating, "well, we're all sinners", or "just fill your heart with love, it conquers all", or "let's just clean-slate it". Sorry folks, it just doesn't work like that. If it did, we'd be living in a whole different reality with each other. If it were that easy ... It's not easy, I guarantee you that.

The process of Spiritual Enlightenment is getting down into the mud with yourself and staying there in it until you realize how the spiritual dysfunction got there to begin with. I promise you, most of how it got there is by your own doing ... and this is what people don't like to look at. We like to point away from ourselves (projection), we prefer to blame someone else for our trespasses, our pain, our sorrow. By allowing yourself to sit in your mud, you begin to take notice how it was "you" that allowed many of these things to happen. It was "you" that actually manifested these situations for yourself...and OH, how discombobulating this realization is. How utterly humbling to know we are the ones that opened the door for pain upon ourselves.

Spiritual enlightenment forces us to take responsibility, take ownership of our actions and mental state. It forces us to clean up our act, so to speak. There is absolutely NO WAY to escape the process of digging into your shadow for true healing and spiritual growth. There are NO SHORTCUTS, there are NO BYPASSES. One can not cheat the system of Universal Law. There is NO WAY of getting out easy.

Again, healing is hard work. Hard-ass-work. WORK!, not la-la lets pretend like all is well in the world - NO - you cheat yourself out of the joy of truly understanding yourself and toughing through the dementia of your mind. There is nothing more blissful than eating your own mudpie, wiping your mouth clean and claiming your prize of healing.

How do you know you've succeeded in healing?, when you don't have to TRY to think positive thoughts. When you don't have to TRY to not be angry or sad or depressed or defeated. When you don't have to run to the next "ra-ra" retreat to get a fix of positive affirmation. When you don't have to fill your world with memes and constant reminders that you are worth something - instead, you write/create them for other people. You lead others into their mud and tell them they are not alone. You stand tall and have a natural air of compassion about you. You no longer have to quote the Masters as your daily speech, because you've cultivated your own divine language for yourself. People now quote you!

There is plenty to fear by turning inward, as most don't have a clue of who they are. I was told once that should I decide to take that inner journey into the self, be prepared to be horrified at what I'll find and discover. Many spiritual cultures refer to this type of spiritual quest as going down into the dark caves of Hades. The only way to enter, is to enter completely naked, with only the torch of your inner-light guiding the way. There will be many shadows and many echoes trying to push one back from the forward course...but when you realize those shadows are your shadows and the echoes stem from your own demented ego, the fear starts to dissipate and we start to see the light at the end...but at first, it is horrifying. I know, as I've been there.

One must go down before one comes up. It's the Law.

What is the payoff? There are many many payoffs to doing this kind of work. The main one, is truly knowing yourself. You will never question again your value, who you are, where you came from, what your purpose is. This is huge and a gift that no one can give you...nor can anyone take it away.

Spiritual Bypassing is a band-aid. It works for a time, before it falls off and another has to be applied. At some point, you have to remove the bandage and let the wound "air out" so it can heal properly.

My recommendation for anyone who desires to travel a quest of healing like this ... do make sure you have some outside support from a therapist, a spiritual coach, or practitioner who can help guide you through some of the deeper traumas. It's helpful to have someone you trust, but also qualified to help navigate through the distortions of the mind. Once most of the thick, sick, ill-filled mud has been cleared, one can usually take off on their own and develop their own unique Spiritual calling.

In love and light, I share these words with you. It is my hope that each and every one of you that reads these posts, pulls a seed or two from them. Create them however you desire. There is never a right or wrong way - our paths are individual and unique.

Until next time - Be well, Stay well