Photo credit to: Tracie Howard from personality to personality When I think about "who am I Being?", it's a long contemplation with lists of words, mainly adjectives ... also, various emotions are invoked with this question. Who am I Being? My first reaction is to check in with my emotions and see where my sense of Peace is. Am I currently at peace? Do I feel comfortable? Am I able to clear my mind easily? Physically, is my breath deep in the lower Dantian? The answers to these questions, for me, are gauges to answer the bigger question of "Who Am I Being?" Aligning myself becomes essential when defining the Who Am I? Basically, walking a Spiritual path where my thoughts, actions/words and emotions, are moving through and with the path of the Soul to a state of Ascension. This is no small order, by any means. So the question is a very BIG multifaceted question. It demands utter transparency with myself. It calls for taking ownership of what I'm creating in this very moment, along with what I created in the prior moment ... as the prior moment and who I was in "that" moment, created who I am being right NOW and what I'm currently experiencing! Owning every particle of what I'm experiencing, with the acknowledgement that nothing and no one other than me has control over that, can be humbling and enlightening! Through the work I've been doing that inspires my personal and Spiritual growth, there comes a point where I have to stop with the input of information and actually put into practice the things I've learned to see if it rings in as A TRUTH for me. What that requires often times, is changing my PERSONALITY to reflect what it is that I wish to experience. How am I to truly know a way of Being if I don't apply those traits and attributes of that specific state - state of Spirit, state of Mind, state of Action. The Innermost, the Absolute, the undeniable breath of creation ... Consciousness, The Spirit - is the driving force. What we think of as the "I", the little person reluctantly being pushed toward what it says it wants in the picture here, is the ego. It can be the opposing force that prevents us from reaching our potential heights of who we actually are. It's so subtle at times, we don't even know there is resistance. Other times, we absolutely know where we go kicking and screaming through our Spiritual evolution. There always comes a point where I know I have to change my personality. Changing my personality becomes exciting because I get to explore what this new found vibration of Being really feels like. What can this new vibration do that the previous vibration couldn't, based on scientific and universal law of vibration, frequency and resonance. The higher the vibration, the closer to my truer self I become. By following suit, I get the opportunity to know myself better, appreciate myself more and create in ways that are unbridled and unbound by heavier "matter" while I was in a lower frequency. THIS IS THE GAME CHANGER, my dear readers. Once we decide to change our personality/mind-set, we then get to go out and decide who we are "committed to Being". Once an action is taken (thought, speech, action), this can be described as who you are committed to being ... or you wouldn't have taken action on it in the first place, no? Sometimes, its not clear what's happening. We think and believe we are taking action on outside influences, but no ... we take action stemming from who am I Being in that moment. From moment to moment, we get to choose. Lesson in action: I'm going to be doing work this week, and encourage all to do the same, as assigned by one of my teachers, Jessica Gutierrez. 3 questions were posed to ponder and get clarity on. 1. Who am I Being? 2. Who am I committed to Being? 3. Who am I? I'll allow this to be taken on as one of my "flow" sessions. This is where "I", the ego, will step aside and allow my innermost to fully take the helm to show me, teach me and guide me in answering these questions. When I write about it, I'll become remote ... remote writing is a technique where I put pen to paper and without any thought, allow myself to spill out onto the paper. It's amazing to experience this. I highly recommend trying it. This exercise is perfect for a Soul seeker like myself. It gives me a platform to take stock in where I've been hanging out. What are the common themes in my life right now and how do those frequencies resonate with my direction? Do I feel I'm heading in the direction that my heart/Soul desire? ... or am I resisting. It's important to get really clear in this area. Who Am I Committed to Being? I'm ultimately committed to Being that which has always been. I'm committed to exploring every possible opportunity that provides wholeness for my innermost. I'm committed to Being the "seeker" until there is no need to seek any longer. I'm committed to changing my Personality anytime it answers a call to a higher state of consciousness, awareness and understanding. I'm committed to releasing the matter that binds me, so that as I become more free, so do my experiences. I am committed to continue my journey of the Soul. I am committed to sharing this work with others, as we all need each other. I am committed to allowing Creation, the Absolute, to experience itself through this little person that it referred to as the "I". I AM the driving force of every experience. I AM the key in every moment of what happens next. I AM the controller in my control room. My Divinity into Yours - Be well, Stay well...
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I've observed over the past several years, perhaps the last 7 especially, the deeper I search myself for the meaning of my life and in search of my truth, the emptier of people it becomes. "The more wisdom you attain and the more conscious you become, the crazier you will appear to others." - this phrase has always made me chuckle...until it happened to me. It's becoming apparent there is truth in this quote. Perhaps there's a bit of that going on. Scalar waves anyone? What my experience has consisted of though, is there seems to be a point where people are "done" hearing about it. Done hearing about my journey and growth, done hearing I've found another way, done listening to how my life and my perspective of it has changed. I've always been curious how one can feel done when one hasn't explored these things for themself. What exactly are they "done" with?...Me? Even more curious, is why others feel I'm asking anything from them. I ask nothing, I dictate nothing, I require nothing, I expect nothing. I'm on my journey - they on theirs. Enough said. I've been asked, more than a few times, "Does everything have to be Spiritual with you?", "Can we just keep it light?" When I sit with this, I realize for 43 years, my life was given into this world, along with everything that influences it - basically collective consciousness and major conditioning. No one taught me about the Spiritual world inside me, even though I've always known it was there. A part of me has always sought out higher wisdom and Spiritual affairs. Only in the last 4 years of continual searching, researching, digging, questing my fibers to reach the point where I can answer this question with a big fat YES! It has taken me 4 years to be able to wake up in the morning and actually know that I'm Spirit first. To "think" spiritually, to "speak" from spirit and to "act" in a spiritual way - and still far from mastery. Yes, I strive to live a Spiritual life! Why not?, I've been living in this world as it is all this time, and I'm ready for something different. I've worked really hard to obtain, what I feel, is the itty-bitty beginnings of higher knowledge within myself. Curious, always curious where a path will take me. The pay off has been the bits of knowledge absorbed along the way, the gift of relaxing into this vessel and into this human experience. The deep Spiritual experiences I've had is better entertainment than any TV show I've ever seen. Shedding the lies and illusion of this place has been a gift ... a real gift. DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SPIRITUAL? No surprises here - whether we want to believe in anything or not, or whether we pursue this subject or not - it doesn't matter - and I'll tell you why; Because EVERYTHING here is Spiritual. I'll say it again. EVERYTHING HERE THAT EXISTS, IS SPIRITUAL. How are we to get around talking about this one? We can't, unless we ignore it. Perhaps a better question then would be, "Do you have to run at such and such a frequency all the time?", "Can't you pull back on your vibration a bit?" I could, absolutely. But I don't want to anymore. 43 years at/in a frequency where I allowed the world to form and shape me. A frequency with a glass ceiling, a frequency where I didn't even bother searching for my higher self; I call that the grey zone, and in my opinion, it's dangerous to the Soul. Very dangerous. I got in a lot of trouble, found myself to be spiritually sick, in that grey zone. Humans tend to define the mundane subjects in life as "keeping it light" - while Spirituality is the "heavy" subject. Where did we learn that searching our inner-selves or accepting ourselves in a loving way is "the" heavy subject, and the state of the world we live in is lighter conversation? Personally, when I get involved in conversations that discuss this world, I walk away feeling very heavy, helpless and hopeless. THAT is heavy to me. I just can't do it anymore ... don't want to do it anymore. This has produced the isolation spoken of earlier in this piece. Many people have migrated out of my life. Some have walked away, others have ran and still others have straight up ghosted me - after years and years and years of friendship, and I'm talking friends AND family...yes, family. Are we not able to hold space for each other? When I get excited about an aspect of my Spiritual growth, and I share it, why does this seem to turn others off? I am only sharing my experience...what happened to me...what I've been shown. Life has become a lonely place indeed and will continue to do so as I run head on into the realms of my inner-being. I always joke about finding a cave and becoming a hermit. I'm beginning to think it's not a joke but an actual thing that happens to people when they start to unplug from the world. The 2 worlds no longer mesh together and at some point, one looks around them and realizes they stand alone. Not in martyrdom, just alone. The number of paths to enlightenment are countless
... no one path is better than the other; yet there are some very contrasting paths compared to the "straight" path, so spoken about in almost every sacred text, religion, spiritual sect, or truth seeker out there right now. Before this piece goes further, I have to remind myself of the truth that my very next experience stems from how I'm thinking NOW...right now, what I say NEXT and what my actions are going to be. So if my goal is to experience something different in the very next moment, I have to look behind me to see where I was and ask the question of whether I want that to be my next experience. I also have to assess where I'm at spiritually, emotionally and mentally, right now. Right NOW is the very key moment of creation, it is also where we find the "straight path", the "razors edge". This is IT's "core", it's where the tools one has accumulated up to this point, are available all in one place. I am the only one who has access and permission to use them when it comes to creating my very next moment. No one controls 'that very next moment' except myself, the Consciousness part of myself. Depending on the tools I choose to use, this will shape the next nano-second of Creation. It happens THAT fast. Reminding myself I am Sovereign, helps navigate my path. I've learned to side-step away from wasting my spiritual time by following pathways down rabbit holes of spiritual teachings, teachers, gurus, religions, sects, cults, etc. - and the worst of the worst - Spiritual Cons. Not a very high resonating frequency, for sure ... especially amongst those who created it for the 'soul' purpose to divert people away from themselves, their path and their purpose. The best way to identify these groups or people, is to THINK. Every seeker has their own path and being sovereign allows the freedom to explore whatever it is we want. It's a beautiful freedom we have, and powerful when it comes to our growth. Every detail in every given moment is created by the individual ... every single detail of the experience. I can't think of any better moment than to utilize the tool of CRITICAL THINKING other than Right Now. Two GREAT questions to ask yourself when someone in spiritual authority, or in casual conversation like we have here in this blog piece, is talking to you are these: 1. Why am I being told this? 2. Where did they hear/learn it? ... a tag question I like to ask also, is, "How have you personally applied this information or lesson/s?" Based on the answers, I then learn how educated, or not, they are on the subject of what they speak, along with the depth, or not, of their experiences on the topic. This helps me navigate how much credit I should give with what is being shared. Often times, unfortunately, individuals are rehashing spiritual material they've read, learned or heard from someone else without EVER applying the material to themself. Here, they have missed the whole journey! How can someone know what a truth is when they don't apply it to themselves first to determine whether it's "Their" truth or not? What's even more noticeable, is they speak about spiritual matters with so much conviction, it's easy for most to just go along with the program. The excitement, passion and sometimes ... persuasion, can pull an individual down roads they have no place being. Although, this is part of a journey for the seeker too - following blindly before one has Spiritually matured to start asking those hard questions, before the seeker starts to put into practice what is being delivered to explore if it's their truth or not. But let us learn discretion now! I highly encourage the questions, especially when you find yourself excited in what you are hearing. THIS is when discretion is most critical. I've put many "beliefs" to bed by exploring them thoroughly, and realizing it may be a truth?, but it's not MY truth. It's not part of MY path. Very helpful in navigation of the Soul journey. OK I'll close this entry with something I read the other day - ENJOY! |
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