does everything need to be so damned spiritual??? part I

IT'S THYME TO GO LONG into a subject which answers the Titled question posted here.

I've observed over the past several years, perhaps the last 7 especially, the deeper I search myself for the meaning of my life and in search of my truth, the emptier of people it becomes. "The more wisdom you attain and the more conscious you become, the crazier you will appear to others."  - this phrase has always made me chuckle...until it happened to me. It's becoming apparent there is truth in this quote.

Perhaps there's a bit of that going on. Scalar waves anyone? What my experience has consisted of though, is there seems to be a point where people are "done" hearing about it. Done hearing about my journey and growth, done hearing I've found another way, done listening to how my life and my perspective of it has changed.  I've always been curious how one can feel done when one hasn't explored these things for themself. What exactly are they "done" with?...Me?

Even more curious, is why others feel I'm asking anything from them. I ask nothing, I dictate nothing, I require nothing, I expect nothing. I'm on my journey - they on theirs. Enough said.

I've been asked, more than a few times, "Does everything have to be Spiritual with you?", "Can we just keep it light?" When I sit with this, I realize for 43 years, my life was given into this world, along with everything that influences it - basically collective consciousness and major conditioning. No one taught me about the Spiritual world inside me, even though I've always known it was there. A part of me has always sought out higher wisdom and Spiritual affairs. Only in the last 4 years of continual searching, researching, digging, questing my fibers to reach the point where I can answer this question with a big fat YES! It has taken me 4 years to be able to wake up in the morning and actually know that I'm Spirit first. To "think" spiritually, to "speak" from spirit and to "act" in a spiritual way - and still far from mastery.

Yes, I strive to live a Spiritual life! Why not?, I've been living in this world as it is all this time, and I'm ready for something different. I've worked really hard to obtain, what I feel, is the itty-bitty beginnings of higher knowledge within myself. Curious, always curious where a path will take me. The pay off has been the bits of knowledge absorbed along the way, the gift of relaxing into this vessel and into this human experience. The deep Spiritual experiences I've had is better entertainment than any TV show I've ever seen. Shedding the lies and illusion of this place has been a gift ... a real gift.

DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SPIRITUAL?

No surprises here - whether we want to believe in anything or not, or whether we pursue this subject or not - it doesn't matter - and I'll tell you why; Because EVERYTHING here is Spiritual. I'll say it again.

EVERYTHING HERE THAT EXISTS, IS SPIRITUAL.

How are we to get around talking about this one? We can't, unless we ignore it. Perhaps a better question then would be, "Do you have to run at such and such a frequency all the time?", "Can't you pull back on your vibration a bit?" I could, absolutely. But I don't want to anymore. 43 years at/in a frequency where I allowed the world to form and shape me. A frequency with a glass ceiling, a frequency where I didn't even bother searching for my higher self; I call that the grey zone, and in my opinion, it's dangerous to the Soul. Very dangerous. I got in a lot of trouble, found myself to be spiritually sick, in that grey zone.

Humans tend to define the mundane subjects in life as "keeping it light" - while Spirituality is the "heavy" subject. Where did we learn that searching our inner-selves or accepting ourselves in a loving way is "the" heavy subject, and the state of the world we live in is lighter conversation? Personally, when I get involved in conversations that discuss this world, I walk away feeling very heavy, helpless and hopeless. THAT is heavy to me. I just can't do it anymore ... don't want to do it anymore. This has produced the isolation spoken of earlier in this piece. Many people have migrated out of my life. Some have walked away, others have ran and still others have straight up ghosted me - after years and years and years of friendship, and I'm talking friends AND family...yes, family.

Are we not able to hold space for each other? When I get excited about an aspect of my Spiritual growth, and I share it, why does this seem to turn others off? I am only sharing my experience...what happened to me...what I've been shown.

Life has become a lonely place indeed and will continue to do so as I run head on into the realms of my inner-being. I always joke about finding a cave and becoming a hermit. I'm beginning to think it's not a joke but an actual thing that happens to people when they start to unplug from the world. The 2 worlds no longer mesh together and at some point, one looks around them and realizes they stand alone. Not in martyrdom, just alone.